5.53 AM / March 26

As you can see above on the top of this window, I have changed the title of my site. No more Mutilated Mind. I don't even know what that meant.

I remember way in sec 4 Lisda always asked me what 'subliminalintellect' meant and to a certain extent I haven't really given her a proper explanation. So here it is...

Here's what I know. The brain at any point of time is only a very small amount of its power to process everything we do. The rest of it is the subconscious mind. Aware but not really in use.

What if the subconscious mind could grow in power to become sort of a secondary conscious mind? The subconscious mind still processes stuff, just without your knowledge. So what if you leave the stuff usually processed by the conscious mind to the subconscious mind to deal with?

I don't just listen to music half of the time. I try to decipher it. Break it down to guitars, bass, vocals drums and whatever else that could be in there. Quite a tough thing for your brain to do. Takes time. But I don't have that time. I have to study most of the time you see. Either that or something else. So I just do it while I do something else.

Amazingly, there are times that I realize that I actually have figured out whole songs even though I don't sit down and listen to them. I find myself able to re-create the timings and general riffs of the whole songs in my head without really remebering listening to the songs that often. But not really to the exact chords or lyrics. Things like drum-pedal timings and general switches in timing.

Sooner or later, I could figure whole drumming sequences while doing things like studying or reading. This pretty much amazed me. Was I just simply slacking off or was I actually using my subconscious mind more effectively?

I'm still very much fascinated by the power of the subconscious mind. This is what subliminalintellect is based on and what it represents. Being able to comprehend and understand without really realizing it. Not just in everyday mundane circumstances, but in more amazing situations where you pretty much turn it into a superpower. Imagine reading about Biology while listening AND understanding a lecture on Physics at the same time.

The power of the subconscious mind is an untapped resource at most. Make full use of it.

6:57 AM / March 21

Got my results. Not too happy. Screwed up big time. This is the second time I am trying to write this post. First post got messed up. That one was quite long. I'll make this one briefed 'cause I'm just too freaking pissed.


Statistics C+ (Expected a C)
Economics B (Expected an A)
Management B+ (Expected an A)
Data Comms and Networking B+(REALLY thought I had the A in the bag)
Java Programming A (Phew....That's one A)
Java Project B+ (I really didn't know what to expect from this one)
French B+(Now I know why people hate the French so much. I knew I had an A)


That's all??? Just one friggin A??? God I suck. Man, this is screwed up. I expected at least 4 As. What did I get? 4 friggin B+'s. God really hates me. I mean look at this.

Data comms : I did almost all the tutorials went for all the lectures.

Economics : I fucking love Economics . It's pretty much all of life's lessons rolled in one.

French : I'm a linguistic person. I can't believe I didn't ace this.

Management : With all the hints this is all I get? You gotta be kidding me.

See these 4 subjects? I thought I was going to get an A for all of them. I knew I needed the A 'cause I had screwed up Statistics by the time these papers rolled around. I needed them to pull up my overall grade. But no....all I get are justs a chunk of B+'s. This is life.

Thank goodness I know why I screwed up. And no it is not my PSP's fault. In fact I figured out JAVA Programming thanks to that. Maybe I'll explain to you the actual reasons in my next post.

4:55 am / March 18

So, I'm back it seems. Not that I've been anywhere. I've just been at home all this time. Well maybe except for the impromptu sleepover at Fadhil's house a couple weeks back and the class chalet a couple of days after that. Other than that I've been at home. Just lazing around getting myself ready for the new term which is like happening in a month's time.

My online life has taken quite a stumble this past month. My old beat-up laptop/PC went dead on me. I think it just got overloaded by the JAVA project. Lost quite a bit of my data on it. My songs especially. Managed to salvage only about 70% of my tracks. Luckily all my schoolwork was saved. I tried to save the godammed thing. Pretty much that was how the impromptu sleepover happened. Went over to Fadhil's house after my final paper. Pradip was there too. We tried to figure out what was wrong (even Pradip included). Tried formatting the thing by installing Windows again. Couldn't work as the hard drive couldn't even be read. So being the guys that we were we decided to dismantle it. Just the cover though. We're not that crazy. Didn't manage to reach the hard drive though. After that Fadhil tried a recovery. Didn't work. Finally he found a possible solution, at about 11 pm I think. Most likely it could have been a problem with the driver for the hard drive. Haven't had a chance to try it out though as it requires a diskette.

So now I got a new PC. Didn't manage to get the laptop that I had been asking for but what the heck. My PC only costs 300 bucks. My bro's friend put it together for me. P4 celeron, 1.68 GHz, 256 RAM, Matrox Video Card, DVD-Writer and an old skool floppy drive. Quite a good deal ain't it? Haha. The wonders of technology. I still need a new keyboard and a monitor. I'm currently using my old ones, a CRT and a stock keyboard. Oh yeah, and better speakers.

Now I'm just waiting for my results which are due in like a few days. I think I might be getting something around the range of 3.3 . My Statistics could probably pull me down. Wasn't confident of that one in the first place. I gotta focus. What am I doing. Forgetting about your future already huh Fariq? I hope not.

One last thing before I go, Where the heck was Hadi posted to?