1:42 AM / 29 April

Another great act from the second season of Britain's Got Talent. This guy is called Suleman Mirza.



I seriously think that Britain's Got Talent offers so much more that America's Got Talent. True that the American version was a spin-off of the initial British version but still. Normally one would expect more from America, but it just goes to show the diversity that Britain has to offer as opposed to America.

9:37 PM / 27 April

Damn. I'm tired and bored. Argh.

I still got proposals to do. Stuff to study for and tutorials to read through. Not to mention that there's still work.

Boneyards by Parkway Drive



These are the sentiments
Of cold-blooded cynic
So believe me when I say
I would love nothing more
Then for everything
To end in unpleasantly
Concrete shoes, rising tides, grey skies, let none survive
Don't say I didn't warn you
I would rather see your face in hell
Than speak another word of this perfect world
I would rather see your face in hell
Than speak another word of this perfect world
Oh
Of this perfect world
Oh to be buried
Beneath the waves
A sailors grave, it's all I crave
Bury me, bury me
5000 fathoms deep
I leave my bones for the depths
The sharpest teeth await our skin
The sharpest teeth await
Bloodlust swarms upon our worthless existence
The devils teeth, the devils teeth beneath our skin
Whispering of silent silent vengeance
Blood debts remain unpaid
Now every breathe of life has been betrayed
Every ideal has through
Nothing we hold brings solace
(Feed us to the sharks)
So let nothing remain
(Feed us to the sea)
To be buried
Beneath the waves
A sailors grave, it's all I crave
Bury me, so bury me
5000 fathoms deep
And leave bones for the depths
There's blood in the water
Sinking, always sinking
There's blood in the water
I would rather see your face in hell
Then speak another word of this perfect fucking world

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The Deepest Gray by All That Remains



Could blood not be so sweet or flow enough to sustain
Two hundred nine tomorrow's rise and I'm alone again
Please not this way so sweet on my tongue it burns away
An empty promise fills my veins with lies

The deepest gray forever lives inside of me
But I am not afraid for I have lived this agony

And time ticks slowly forward towards the break of day
Five seven nine arrival more fuel for disarray
But be still my tongue for I know not what I say
My life is lived in darkness and here I'll remain

And so the night wears on
And so my patience thins
I now walk through this fire
To purify the sins

And so the night wears on and so my patience thins
To my eyes dawn in horror cause I'm alone again

9:21 AM / 25 April

Eat your heart out Michael Jackson. Haha. The follow-up to Hearts Burst Into Fire. That song actually medley's with Waking The Demon. Hope youtube doesn't pull down the video since I can't embed the one from bullettv.

Waking The Demon by Bullet For My Valentine



Helpless,
My eyes are bleeding from the fear that's inside,
You sealed your demise,
When you took what was mine,
Don't try and stop me from avenging this world,
No voice to be heard!

Waking The Demon,
Where'd you run to?
Walking in shadows,
Watch the blood flow,
There's not much longer, so don't try and fight,
Your bodies weakining, Walk to the light,
Those painful times, so alone so ashamed,
I'm not coming back, there's nothing to gain

Caution there's just no limits to the boundaries you push
I've warned you but still you fuck with my mind
There's no escape from this rage that I feel
Nothing is real

Waking The Demon,
Where'd you run to?
Walking in shadows,
Watch the blood flow,
There's not much longer, so don't try and fight,
Your bodies weakining, Walk to the light,
Those painful times, so alone so ashamed,
I'm not coming back, there's nothing to gain

Breathe for me
Don't wake me from this slumber.
Stay With me
Possession taking over

NOOOOO!!
Tread!

Breathe for me
Don't wake me from this slumber.
Stay With me
Possession taking over

Waking The Demon!

2:15 AM / 23 April

I've been catching a few of the acts for the second season of Britain's Got Talent which started recently. This was one of the few acts which really blew me away. I never expected it out of this kid. He's only 13 and he's getting bullied 'cause of the way he sings. And his confidence was almost totally non-existent yet somehow he pulled it off. Granted the effect was much greater as no one expected him to sing like that. But still this kid's got skill. Check it out.



And here's another act that I think can win the competition.

3:17 AM / 20 April

Oh my God. I just came back from working for 14 hours straight. The gourmet auntie was sick so I had to cover for her. So instead of working from 12-8pm, I had to work until 2am. Owned. Now I feel damn shagged. And I still have to go somewhere else later today.

Again I do not know what else to post so I shall just put up this older Alexisonfire video.

Counterparts and Number Them by Alexisonfire



Jennifer,
They lied to you.
When they said you couldn't breathe underwater.
(So here it is, the end is near)
I lied, too, when I said that I was hard.
(Never would've thought this might be something you'd so easily discard)
I'm soft...
Softer...
(Now I see it all so clear)
Than a...
(So it seems that when you turned away, you...)
Thrift store...
(Left...)
Thrift store...
(A scar)
Thrift store...
Sweater.
Twice as worn in.
Twice as worn in.

I was cast away once,
But I will be found again.
This I promise you.
Promise you.

12:08 AM / 19 April

So many things to do, so little time (and money).

I found this while looking through the files in all my portable drives. I think I wrote this way last year. Or even 2 years ago. The date modified shows the year 2006. Woah. That's old. I wrote this during the point in time where I had a lot of metalcore flowing through my ears, if I'm not mistaken. I don't even know if I've posted it up before.

Echoes of an Addicted Fool

YOU!!
Took me in and spat me out
Turned your back against
The only one you ever knew

YOU!!
Destroyed from within
Took all that I had
And threw it all away

Pre-chorus:
What I feel can't be real
What I see can't be true
This thoughts they eat at me
This body needs you

Chorus:
Look into my eyes
See the pain I feel
Look into my mind
Feel this torture within
All that I am is gone
Lost in thoughts of you
From deep down inside
This pain will echo through

YOU!!
Were everything I ever wanted
All that I need
I found in you

You!!
Are all that I hate
The poison that kills
The evil that is you

(Pre-Chorus)

(Chorus)

Bridge:
Now, I stand here shivering
Addicted to the thought of you
Feelings of total disconnection
Yet my body still longs for you

(Pre-Chorus)

(Chorus)

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I didn't know what else to post here. So I thought I'd just post this.

Raining Blood(Live) by Slayer

9:15 PM / 17 April

I just realized something. We were never really going to programme a Google App. I kinda thought we were since we had to sign up for an account with NYP's Google App site. But I totally forgot the aim of the Google App Sites. They were more of a way to connect between separate entities in an organization and school and it aims to aid in the process of sharing information. Or something by th like of that. So my semester-long project is again another open-ended project. I do not know what to do for the project. Still unsure of the objectives and deliverables. Argh. Thank God for once I am not the leader. But I'll help.


I went to watch Hottie & The Nottie during my 4-hour break just now. It was kinda predictable but it did have Paris Hilton in it. Though I couldn't really see much of her considering how darn bloody skinny she is. My class initially wanted to watch The Forbidden Kingdom. They had the screening time and everything. But they failed to realize that the movie is released tomorrow. So yeah. I felt like I kinda wasted my 6 bucks.

I start school at 3 tomorrow! Haha. And it's not by virtue of cancelled classes. It's just how messed up my timetable is.

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I've had this song on my head a lot recently. I guess it's quite a cool song. Too bad the lead guitarist left the band to pursue his life in classical music. But still it's a cool song. And a cool video at that. And a tiny bit anti-politic

Vela, Together We Await The Storm by The Human Abstract



A story without a name.
A desert journey that we became.
Another test of our power overcoming on a black day.
Appalling how they're running for the honor like a campaign.
To be the leaders of a phony dead scene in a magazine.
I always figured there was something more.

Gone, so many friends and lovers
So far, nothing to show in turn

They'll take it all back,
All those empty words.
I'll show the dregs
Where all their slander has led.
If it takes my whole life,
For all the tears that i have shed

They'll take it back,
I'm making a pact.
They'll take it back,
I'm making a promise.
I'm eager to the task,
Exposing all who wear a mask.

It must be done.

The storm yet to come binds us at one
Through it all,
Loneliness and adversity,
Failure and injustices only guide us on our way
So pray, you won't be finding a faker
Nor will an opportune moment arise

6:46 PM / 15 April

School's out. For today it was at least. Kinda trademark first week of school. A lot of classes cancelled. It kinda helps with easing into the tornado of schoolwork awaiting us. So I decided to sleep in today. The rain kinda helped in that aspect. So all my errands are gonna get pushed until tomorrow I guess.

I kinda realized why Comeback Kid is performing at Braddell Heights CC. I forgot how crazy hardcore gigs can get and I guess that's the only place where they can contain such chaos.

Wake The Dead (Live) by Comeback Kid

6:57 PM / 14 April

Oh damn. I just came back from school. What a drag that was. This semester is gonna have a super weird feeling to it. I got 2 semester long projects this time round. One is the usual IT programming project. The other one is an entrepreneurship project. I have to formulate a business plan for the next 15 weeks and at the end of that I have to present it to a panel of industry professionals. Argh. That's gonna be tough. I miss simpler Business modules like International Business that deal with everyday issues which have a major impact on economies. I like doing those type of analysis. And the tutorials for those types of modules are fun 'cause there is usually active interaction and not just passive understanding. I guess that's poly life for you. You get some, you lose some.

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I thought I'd post this up since I'm in a Silverstein shirt. Lame. I know. This song has a bit of meaning for me. So yeah. Don't ask.


Still Dreaming by Silverstein



Today, I lie down deep in slumber.
Feelings are falling downward.
I want to forget.
Waking up, I hear the way your voice sounds.
My heart starts to pound, now...
To the rhythm of yours.
You're so angelic. Your words so symphonic.
Attach your lips to my soul, eat this sorrow away.
How am I so lucky, I found you?

Sometimes, I feel like I'm still dreaming.
It seems like everyday, you're always on my mind.
This is how we stay so connected over space and time.

When we talk about all my old drama,
You look at me and wonder how I'm not insane.
Every week the days seem to get longer.
But you know our love gets stronger with every word we say.
Stronger every day.
You know I would do anything for you.

Sometimes, I feel like I'm still dreaming.
It seems like everyday, you're always on my mind.
This is how we stay so connected over space and time.

If you are feeling down, you know I feel it, now.
We give each other strength to make it through the darkness.
You take me to a place I never want to leave.
I'm in my deepest dream, I don't ever want to wake up.
I'll fight till I die, I won't say goodbye, and I won't let this pass me by.

Sometimes, I feel like I'm still dreaming.
It seems like everyday, you're always on my mind.
This is how we stay so connected over space and time.

Let's run away,
Let's go away to some place safe.
I want it all, I want everything.

11:10 PM / 12 April

Just came back from jamming today. It was quite fun even though I turned up 30 minutes late. I got some of the timing issues down. All that needs to be done now is to actually memorize the song and how it's supposed to go. Not to just listen to it. I realize it's different. Especially if you do not listen to a song that much. And we need a better bassist. Or at least a more dedicated one.

And I just realized today that Comeback Kid are performing in Singapore. And in of all locations, it's at Braddell Heights Community Club. I was like thinking, 'Couldn't have they chosen a better location?' I understand the feel of most hardcore shows, especially with a band like Comeback Kid, but wouldn't like say a place in a more central area be better? Or even a more well known and accessible place? Well, I'm contemplating whether to go or not. It's 55 bucks at the door. The gig is on the 25th. It might clash with school. I dunno.

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I just discovered another so-called sub-section of hardcore that kinda falls under the straightedge thing. It's called posi-hardcore. Posi in this case is short for positive or positive thinking. I learned about it after coming across this band called With Honor. I kinda liked the sound of their song "Like Trumpets" and went to check out their scene. The scene focuses on having a positive outlook on life and being pro-active in life. It sounds cheesy at first. But the music actually makes quite a lot of sense. So yeah. Here's the vid.

Like Trumpets by With Honor



Enough pictures drawn in the sand,
Of everything we wish we'd been,
Just to watch them wash out when the waters rise.

Enough careless talk about giving up,
Complaining of the things we haven't got,
Why can't we stand up to the test of time?

No more, No less than all we are, all we have,
No more holding back.
So far, we've only made a scratch, knives out,
No more holding back.
We'll drag our heels on cold concrete
until it's four feet wide and six feet deep,
To forget our regrets and yesterdays.

Enough careless talk about giving up,
Complaining of the things we haven't got,
Why can't we stand up to the test of time?

No more, No less than all we are, all we have,
No more holding back.
So far, we've only made a scratch, knives out,
No more holding back.

I want to cut, cut the binds,
It's not the scissors that are dull.
It's our minds, It's our apathy and shallow goals entwined.
It's all or nothing, kiss yesterday goodbye.

No more, No less than all we are, all we have,
No more holding back.
So far, we've only made a scratch, knives out,
No more holding back.
It's all or nothing, kiss yesterday goodbye.
It's all or nothing, kiss yesterday goodbye.
It's all or nothing, kiss yesterday goodbye.
It's all or nothing, kiss yesterday goodbye.

12:37 AM / 12 April

Just came back from a bbq with PBMA. Man, I wished it never ended. Just spending time with close friends really reminded me a lot about secondary school life. I mean we guys are tight man. It's really as if we were siblings. That's how I view it. I'd put myself on the line for anyone of them anytime. I guess it always puts things into perspective. Things are never forever. Not that that's bad or anything but I kinda regret at times not really trying to remember all the stuff that happened. I'm gonna be a very boring dad when my future kids ask me what I used to do in school. I'd just tell them I didn't remember. 'Cause it's pretty much been a blur. I guess it's kinda leaves me wanting more. That's why I always say I don't wanna go home. I'm kinda afraid of not having enough memories for the future. I guess I'll just have to keep an eye out for the future and what it brings me.

I'm going jamming tomorrow. Hope it turns out well. I seem to have a problem. I can always get the drumming patterns in my head when I'm at home. But in the studio it's just different. I tend to forget rolls and transitions. I think I need my own drum set. I hope I can get one once I move to my granddad's place.

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I just reviewed the lyrics for this song and I finally understood the meaning behind it. I guess it just didn't register the first time I bought the CD and listened to this song. See if you guys can figure it out.

Go by Blink 182



Are we all victims of opportunity,
Locked outside the door back in '83,
I heard the angry voice of the man inside,
put the look of fear in my mother's eyes.

Go! Go! Go! Go!
I don't wanna know (Go! Go!)
I don't wanna know (Go!, Go!).

Mom get in the car and let's drive away,
She said "I'm sorry Mark but there's nowhere to stay",
Gave up all her hope and went back inside,
Hid her broken heart and let the engine die.


Go! Go! Go! Go!,
I don't wanna know (Go! Go!),
I don't wanna know (Go! Go!).

Why do evil men get away with it?
Can't you see that I'm in a world of shit?
turn your back on hope and go back inside,
Stop my bleeding heart and let the engine die.

I don't wanna know,
I don't wanna know,
I don't wanna know,
I don't wanna know.

(Go Go)I don't wanna know,
(Go Go)I don't wanna know,
(Go Go)I don't wanna know,
(GO Go)I don't wanna know.

6:16 PM / 8 April

Man. I really wish I can go to the Warped Tour. I've heard the past 3 years' worth of Warped Tour compilations and every year without fail I get hooked onto amazing bands which I hear for the first time. There's Protest the Hero, Vanna, I Am Ghost and more. And the thing about the Warped Tour is that it's not just your average festival, it's a very long tour. And the number of bands on tour kinda blow me away. If I'm not mistaken, this year's tour has about 100 bands booked. So yeah. It's got great variety and it amazingly it does not consist of only punk bands. There are metalcore acts, a lot of post-hardcore and emo acts. So you pretty much do not get bored of the music there. Here are some of my new favourite bands thanks to the Warped Tour compilation I bought.


Mea Culpa by The Human Abstract



Calling by Strung Out



Our Friend Lazarus Sleeps by I Am Ghost

5:41 PM / 4 April

I don't know what to talk about today so I decided to just put up some old music videos.

Run To The Hills by Iron Maiden



Iron Man by Black Sabbath (These are the pioneers)



Blitzkrieg Bop by The Ramones