I'll try not to say too much.
I always grew up expecting quite a bit on my birthday. When I was younger I was always thinking about getting this or that for my birthday. I was kinda a spoilt idiot. Then slowly, my 'expectations' (if that's what you want to call it) did not get met.
Even as I started to grow up and began to lower my expectations, there were always certain things that I wanted and in a way I somehow got disappointed every year. But do not mistake me, I am still grateful for all that I got. But then I look at my life now and I wonder, 'Why do I even care?'.
And you know what? I shouldn't care about mundane things like a birthday. These things are pretty much formalities in life. They say your birthday should be one of the happiest days in your life. Well, I don't care.
'Cause this are the best things that happened in my life which did not happen on my birthday:
- My mom recovered from cancer
- I made it to Anderson
- I made it out of Anderson respectably
- I made it to a polytechnic
- I met a great group of people who I call my friends
- I'm doing well for my standards at the moment
- My brother is getting married(Okay technically, this hasn't happened yet but it's happening soon. Don't let me down bro)
So again, it's my birthday and here's what I'm going to do today. I'm going to wake up. I'm going to eat. Then I'll be headed to Borders at Wheelock to see if they have a job opening. Then I'm gonna get my dad's birthday present. His birthday is tomorrow. Then depending on what happens, maybe I'll take a walk along Orchard Road. Then I'll come home, turn on my computer and watch the Simpsons or Whose Line Is It Anyway. Then I'll pass my dad his gift and get on with watching stuff on my computer. After that I guess I'll go to sleep.
Quite eventful don't you think?
But there are somethings that I do want. But these things are a sort of a round-the-year thing.
What I really want is to always be there for the people who are close to me. The people that I care for. To never leave their side. Not so that they remember me but just so that I can remember them for what they've done for me.
I want my brother to get married. Then, I want my brother to get his scholarship to study in Australia. Then after studying, I want a niece or a nephew from him. (Nah, just kidding on that point. Own time, own target bro)
I want my mom to get better in terms of health. I want my dad to stay employed, not for me, but for the family's sake.
I want to go to university. I either want to do business or go on to do a Bachelor's in English.
I want to have my own family. But that's a long way away so no rush 'cause technically I'm still not attached. Any takers? Hehe.
(I had to end this on a light note 'cause it seemed to sound more like a eulogy than whatever else I was supposed to write).
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Now playing: All That Remains - The Air That I Breathe
via FoxyTunes
I will not relent no no
Never live with defeat, never falter
Just like the air that I breathe(like the air I breathe)
I will not choke on failure
And I will not choke on failure
I am a mortal man
But I'm not falling, I'm not broken yet
I am a mortal man
But I'll hold tight to my beliefs now
I have suffered defeat, pain, loss
Still I push to the edge, never falter
For this cements my beliefs
I'll remain my own master
