9:39 PM / 28 May

Hmmm.....

So yeah. I graduated. With Merit. Diploma in Business Informatics. What now? Have I made it yet? Am I a made man?

Seems a little early for that question to be asked aye? But I think it's a good question to ask oneself. Every single milestone, be it me graduating, me completing NS or maybe even the birth of my child. I will ask myself that very question. And I know, every single time, I will tell myself no. Or maybe until I can make sure I can take care of my family and friends. 'Cause truthfully, that's all I ever care about. Make my mom and dad proud of me. To be respected among my friends. And keep myself happy. That's all.

Maybe I shoulda taken more pictures. Maybe. But it's not like I care. Best memories are the ones in my head.

Only downside was maybe the fact that my brother was not around. But he's doing more important things like getting his degree in Tasmania. Come back quick! We're gonna take graduation photos of us in bodybuilding poses! Haha.

5:12 PM / 10 May

I learnt an important thing yesterday night. I was having supper with my dad and we spent the time talking about his bachelor years. From his first attempts at finding a job to his life in the army. The dilemma he had when he had to choose between Malaysia and Singapore during the separation.

On the way back, he told me something that made a lot of sense. His dad, my late grandfather, always told him "Kalau tak ada duit, nak pergi dari sini ke Geylang pun jauh. Tapi kalau ada duit, nak pergi dari sini ke Penang pun dekat." Translated it means, "When we have no money, to travel just to Geylang would be far. With money however, even Penang is near."

Not to be money-minded or anything, but this actually makes a lot of sense. As much as I try not to be a paper chaser and money maker, we will continuously need money. It's just the nature of it. Okay, now someone gimme a job.

1:58 AM / 3 May

New H2O vid for their song 'Nothing To Prove' off of their album of the same name.

Me and all my friends we got nothing to prove, nothing to lose!
You know us and what we achieved
From the streets of L.E.S to your TV!
Many have come, and many will go, but 20 years later
Who's still runnin' the show
Hard times have come our way, we held it down and kept the PMA!
With only one voice we have more to say - still mentally vexed
TCOB!!

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Feels good to listen to some NYC hardcore. I really hope to reach a point in my life when I literally have nothing to prove to other people. Just to those around me. And to just be happy. That's what I've been doin lately. See the 3 letters 'PMA' up there? Means 'Positive Mental Attitude'. Can't be straightedge and not keep the PMA now can I?

I'm straightedge. PMA for life.