I Think I'm Gonna Be Sick....*barfs*

Urgh...I don't think I feel too good. Asked my dad for a ride to school this morning. I thought that it was gonna be kinda relaxed as I did not have to wait for any dumb buses. To my horror, as we were about to leave the carpark, my dad blasted some sort of old skool Malaysian mat jiwang CD. I almost died. I was already suffering from a lack of sleep and the last thing I needed was to be smothered in lame ass tunes where the guy keeps on asking why the girl left him. It was already bad enough that I was half asleep and hungry. Now I'm getting a freaking headache from the music playing in the car. And of all lessons to start my day off it had to be French. Je Parle Francais. Yeah right...

I am one of the faster learners in class but I am still lost for the most part. How the heck do I conjugate vous and nous? Actually, that I already. The screwed up part now is knowing which objects are masculine and which objects are feminine. I thought that there was a rule for this. Turns out there is no such rule. So now, before I say a noun, I have to think to myself, 'Is it a guy or a girl?'. I think the problem comes from the idiot who invented Francais. I think he forgot a French version of the word 'it'. Life becomes much simpler when 'it' becomes part of the language.

So, I was supposed to hand up an assignment for French just now and to my disbelief, I was supposed to hand up an e-assignment as well. Something Bernard forgot to pass to me. Good going there man. Now I have to go and pass it up to my tutor on Thursday.

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So, I just got a friendster account. Now, I'm not being a dick or anything but I really think that MySpace is better than Friendster. With all due respect to Friendster, they are a good social networking site. Good for keeping in touch with old friends as well as getting to know new ones. But it pretty much stops there.

You know me, more is everything. In MySpace, there is one major thing that makes me love it so much. MySpace Music. It's very hard to keep track with the underground scene if you don't have any contacts in the scene itself. So with MySpace Music, I kinda get a feel for the scene. At the same time, I can actually listen to alot of different up and coming bands the world has never heard of. +44 for example. Mark and Travis have risen from the ashes that was once Blink-182 with a better band, sound and no Tom to say, 'I want total control of the band'. They don't have any proper website. Instead they decided to use a MySpace Artists page. This is actually much better than having just a website. They ACTUALLY keep in close contact with their fans. THEY actually maintain the page. Not some web page numb-nut. The even greater thing is that Mark has his own MySpace. It's kinda cool to have somebody like Mark as a 'friend' even if it is only on MySpace.

But one thing Friendster is good for is that I can actually see all my old classmates mainly due to the fact that the whole of Singapore uses it. I was surfing through the system the other day and I came upon kids from my primary school. Good thing? I don't know. Primary school was a time when I had all the options stacked against my favour. Only Malay kid in a class of elitist Chinese kids with only 1 Indian kid and 1 Chinese kid to truly call friends. Kinda feels like my Poly class except on the opposite side of the spectrum if you know what I mean. But I'm there to help them.

So anybody with a Friendster account add me. www.friendster.com/sublimemind.

hmmm....

So I guess I'm supposed to update this thing. Can't really think of what to talk about. It's not that nothing much goes on in my life, it's just that I don't really bother remembering shit. Its just a waste of energy. For instance, after stepping out of the exam hall I can never remember what questions were asked. It dosen't make a difference if I remember what the answer for question 3, sub-question b, part a, sub-part i is because the paper is over. The only thing I remember from exams is who I kicked in the nuts before the paper started (that's you Syafiq). It really makes no sense everytime I see people cry AFTER the paper. Why don't you cry DURING the paper. Just make the decision and live with it. That's all I'm saying.

My Econs tutor told the class the other day, 'Life is all about second guessing'. TO a certain extent I almost believed him. But then I asked myself, why second guess in the first place? Trying to figure what other people are going to do simply means you are letting their decisions control you. This should never be the case. You are in control of your own life. Not your family, not your friends and to a certain extent, not even God (I hope I'm not offending you Big Man). Second guess life and you are second guessing every single decision you made through your whole life.

Some people ask, 'Why is my life so screwed-up?'. The answer is simple. Because you let it get screwed up. Life is all about looking forward and never ever looking back.




Now back to what I was supposed to talk about.

Monday : Had French then had Statistics (test) and ended off with Econs.

Tuesday : Had Object-oriented programming project (lab), then Data comms and finished with stats.

Wednesday : Object-oriented programming followed by data comms. Went to Hashir's place at night with ex-anderson budak Melayu for his open house. Had fun there.

Thursday : Had management, econs and data comms until 8.30 at night.

Friday : Management and programming.




See. Life becomes very simple when you don't look back. To think that in between all that there was alot of shit going on at the same time. So why make life difficult and grieve over a wrong decision? Face life head-on. Stop to think and life will punish you.

Masters of Metal

My phone is screwed. The keypad is not working. Only the on/off button. SonOfABitch man. All my contacts are stored in there and stoopid old me didn't copy it into my SIM card. I've had it for only about one year and I thought it could hold out for another year but I guess not. I'm going down to Plaza S'pura on Sunday (if I have the energy and time) to get it checked. So, for now I'm just using an old beat-up 7250. I don't mind about what phone I own now pretty much due to the fact that I've got my PSP. But I really am starting to miss my E398. I don't know if I'm going to get like a sort of permanent-temporary replacement for it in case it can't be fixed. But whatever the case, I need cash. Hari Raya didn't bring me much. I think all my Raya cash is gone. That's Poly life they say...






One by Metallica and The San Francisco Symphony Orchestra.

I keep watching these S&M Metallica videos and I still don't know how they managed to pull it off. Musically I was looking at the Metallica music sheets and I just couldn't grasp how Metallica's riffs could be accompanied by an orchestra. Strike that. The symphony wasn't accompanying, they were actually playing together with their own riffs. Metallica has a rather deep Blues background so I'm thinking that's how they do it. But matching the riffs and timing, woah... I'm still blown away. It almost turned the songs into sort of a musical epic.

I was actually contemplating something like this back at Anderson last year, but then I realized, Anderson does not have a string orchestra. Just a wind "ensemble". So I scrapped the plan. If it had gone through, it would be just that, alot of wind. Long time since I jammed. Missing my band man. I just need to sit at the drums for an hour an beat the shit out of the skins. It'll relieve alot of tension. Scrap that. It'll release ALL of my tensions.

Like I always say, music is about feeling. The musician maketh the instrument. And I just wanna make my drums scream.

Masters of Metal

My phone is screwed. The keypad is not working. Only the on/off button. SonOfABitch man. All my contacts are stored in there and stoopid old me didn't copy it into my SIM card. I've had it for only about one year and I thought it could hold out for another year but I guess not. I'm going down to Plaza S'pura on Sunday (if I have the energy and time) to get it checked. So, for now I'm just using an old beat-up 7250. I don't mind about what phone I own now pretty much due to the fact that I've got my PSP. But I really am starting to miss my E398. I don't know if I'm going to get like a sort of permanent-temporary replacement for it in case it can't be fixed. But whatever the case, I need cash. Hari Raya didn't bring me much. I think all my Raya cash is gone. That's Poly life they say...






One by Metallica and The San Francisco Symphony Orchestra.

I keep watching these S&M Metallica videos and I still don't know how they managed to pull it off. Musically I was looking at the Metallica music sheets and I just couldn't grasp how Metallica's riffs could be accompanied by an orchestra. Strike that. The symphony wasn't accompanying, they were actually playing together with their own riffs. Metallica has a rather deep Blues background so I'm thinking that's how they do it. But matching the riffs and timing, woah... I'm still blown away. It almost turned the songs into sort of a musical epic.

I was actually contemplating something like this back at Anderson last year, but then I realized, Anderson does not have a string orchestra. Just a wind "ensemble". So I scrapped the plan. If it had gone through, it would be just that, alot of wind. Long time since I jammed. Missing my band man. I just need to sit at the drums for an hour an beat the shit out of the skins. It'll relieve alot of tension. Scrap that. It'll release ALL of my tensions.

Like I always say, music is about feeling. The musician maketh the instrument. And I just wanna make my drums scream.

Creeping Death

Metallica - Creeping Death





Metallica are practically my heroes. They pretty much made Metal the genre that it is today. At the same time, the epitomize the evolution of bands not just visually but musically. This was taken at a Monsters Of Rock concert in Moscow some time after the Black Album was released. To me, this song has one of the best lyrics ever written or to be even put to music. It sends not just a superficial message but also a deeper meaning if you read into it.

Creeping Death

Slaves
Hebrews born to serve, to the pharaoh
Heed
To his every word, live in fear

Faith
Of the unknown one, the deliverer
Wait
Something must be done, four hundred years

So let it be written, so let it be done
I'm sent here by the chosen one
So let it be written, so let it be done
To kill the first born pharaoh son
I'm creeping death

Now
Let my people go, land of Goshen
Go
I will be with thee, bush of fire

Blood
Running red and strong down the Nile
Plague
Darkness three days long, hail to fire

So let it be written, so let it be done
I'm sent here by the chosen one
So let it be written, so let it be done
To kill the first-born pharaoh son
I'm creeping death

Die by my hand
I creep across the land
Killing first-born man

Die by my hand
I creep across the land
Killing first-born man

I
Rule the midnight air, the destroyer
Born
I shall soon be there, deadly mass

I
Creep the steps and floor, final darkness
Blood
Lamb's blood, painted doors, I shall pass

So let it be written, so let it be done
I'm sent here by the chosen one
So let it be written, so let it be done
To kill the first-born pharaoh son
I'm creeping death

Words and Music by James Hetfield, Lars Ulrich, Cliff Burton and Kirk HammettCopyright © 1984 Creeping Death Music (ASCAP)International Copyright Secured All Rights Reserved

dead

Saddam Hussein is sentenced to death. Sure, it's proper punishment considering the genocide of Shiites back in 1982. But does it really help Iraq? I have always been asking myself these questions since the Iraqi Occupation started. Since that inevitable day, there has been non-stop violence in Iraq. Thousands of civilians, INNOCENT PEOPLE are dead all because Bush's father lost in the previous war. Iraqis now live in fear everyday. You not only have to worry about the U.S. troops but now you have to fear the goddamn militants. Couldn't Saddam have been overthrown without the need for conflict? I pray for the lives of the innocent everytime I here of Iraq. The reason why Iraq is in its state, the reason why oil prices are rising, the reason why you've run your country into 11 trillion dollars in debt is all because you chose to finsh what your father couldn't. And look what's happened now.

One piece of irony before I go. As I was reading about the Saddam sentence, The Offspring's Baghdad started to play on my media player which I had let run on random. Coincidence? I don't think so. Saddam deserved to die but not every other soldier and civilian. Send your troops where they are really needed, New Orleans. Katrina killed, not Saddam.

That's it. I'm done.

one

SOMEBODY KILL ME PLEASE. REALLY. I MEAN IT.