12:37 AM / 12 April

Just came back from a bbq with PBMA. Man, I wished it never ended. Just spending time with close friends really reminded me a lot about secondary school life. I mean we guys are tight man. It's really as if we were siblings. That's how I view it. I'd put myself on the line for anyone of them anytime. I guess it always puts things into perspective. Things are never forever. Not that that's bad or anything but I kinda regret at times not really trying to remember all the stuff that happened. I'm gonna be a very boring dad when my future kids ask me what I used to do in school. I'd just tell them I didn't remember. 'Cause it's pretty much been a blur. I guess it's kinda leaves me wanting more. That's why I always say I don't wanna go home. I'm kinda afraid of not having enough memories for the future. I guess I'll just have to keep an eye out for the future and what it brings me.

I'm going jamming tomorrow. Hope it turns out well. I seem to have a problem. I can always get the drumming patterns in my head when I'm at home. But in the studio it's just different. I tend to forget rolls and transitions. I think I need my own drum set. I hope I can get one once I move to my granddad's place.

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I just reviewed the lyrics for this song and I finally understood the meaning behind it. I guess it just didn't register the first time I bought the CD and listened to this song. See if you guys can figure it out.

Go by Blink 182



Are we all victims of opportunity,
Locked outside the door back in '83,
I heard the angry voice of the man inside,
put the look of fear in my mother's eyes.

Go! Go! Go! Go!
I don't wanna know (Go! Go!)
I don't wanna know (Go!, Go!).

Mom get in the car and let's drive away,
She said "I'm sorry Mark but there's nowhere to stay",
Gave up all her hope and went back inside,
Hid her broken heart and let the engine die.


Go! Go! Go! Go!,
I don't wanna know (Go! Go!),
I don't wanna know (Go! Go!).

Why do evil men get away with it?
Can't you see that I'm in a world of shit?
turn your back on hope and go back inside,
Stop my bleeding heart and let the engine die.

I don't wanna know,
I don't wanna know,
I don't wanna know,
I don't wanna know.

(Go Go)I don't wanna know,
(Go Go)I don't wanna know,
(Go Go)I don't wanna know,
(GO Go)I don't wanna know.