Damn. Cancer Bats are really getting me back into listening to hardcore punk. Their energy is just crazy. It's just freaking infectious. I actually caught myself head-banging in public. Like one of those kind of "shiok-sendiri" moments. I bet I looked like a dickhead. Especially since it was in the MRT.
Cancer Bats are probably my favorite current hardcore band next to Gallows. I mean nothing can beat Gallows. They are just pure aggression in your face. Just balls out crazy. I mean just check out this song and the lyrics. Just intense man.
Orchestra of Wolves by Gallows
My name is Casanova
I'm basically a man
I have the head of a wolf
The appetite of an entire land
This song is going out to the girls
You're all looking fucking fine
Baby spread those shaking legs
Because I'm feeling fucking hungry tonight
I like to feed on broken hearts
There ain't no taste like lovers falling apart
If i offer to buy you a drink
Trust me when i say it's non-alcoholic
You're no good to me if you can't even speak
I don't want you passing out i want you sucking my dick
If i offer to buy you a drink
Trust me when i say it's non-alcoholic
I want you to wake up and remember my name
When you're washing my cum off your fucking face
My name is casanova
I'm basically a man
I have the head of a wolf
The appetite of an entire land
This song is going out to the girls
You're all looking well buff
I'm sick of all this long term shit
I just wanna fuck
My name is casanova
I'm nothing but a beast
Baby the way you're shaking those hips
Has got me ready for a fucking feast
This song is going out to the girls
I want to feel your body close against mine
Why waste time with conversation
When we can fuck for the rest of our lives
The hardest thing you'll ever learn
Is just to love and be loved in return
So back to Cancer Bats. I realize quite a large number of the bands I listen to are Canadian bands. And this is a good thing. I mean there's Alexisonfire, Comeback Kid and now Cancer Bats. Cancer Bats actually toured a lot with Alexisonfire previously.
Cancer Bats, from what I've heard, are just in your face grinding, pounding hardcore. And they have awesome riffs. Just like how Gallows incorporate a lot of classic rock into their music, Cancer Bats have quite a distinct guitar styling. Sounds a lot like Pantera might I say. And I think that Kerrang! might have gotten it a bit off 'cause I read in one of their reviews and they called it metalcore. I guess the Pantera-ish riffing may give it that metal tinge, but this is straight-up hardcore punk. Their newest vid was Hail Destroyer which I already posted. So I'll post up a couple of vids from their first album.
French Immersion by Cancer Bats
Let’s do this, yeah, this reckless life, 1234
Chances all, written off, write our own, prevail
This blood we drink, in our hearts
This blood we drink, forever
Take back the bonds that break us
Take back the oaths we swear
Take back to make things right
Young hearts be free tonight
And what we’ve got
This is our ammunition
And what we’ve got
This is our ammunition
Let’s do this, yeah, this reckless life, making amends
Chance is ours, start a new, don’t look back, prevail
This blood we drink, in our lungs
This blood we drink, forever
Take back the bonds that break us
Take back the oaths we swear
Take back to make things right
Young hearts be free tonight
And what we’ve got
This is our ammunition
And what we’ve got
This is our ammunition
Let’s do this, yeah, this reckless way, yeah
Pneumonia Hawk by Cancer Bats(feat. George Pettit from Alexisonfire)
Good goddamn , I've got things to say
And this will break your heart
If you're running shit
I'm running scared, running scared
I'm feeling low, in this city
I'm feeling low, in this town
It comes down to this, this one
This place is hell on earth
This place is the worst
Good goddamn have I got things to say
And this will break you're heart
If you're running shit
I'm running scared, running scared
I'm feeling low, in this city
I'm feeling low, in this town
Waste time for this, this one
Waste time for this, this one
Alright, we won't get no younger
Alright, we won't waste no time
Oh this place is heaven I think
Oh this place is
Alright, we won't get no younger
Alright, we won't waste no time
Oh this place is heaven I think
Oh this place is
All this, this one thing, wasting my time
All this, this one thing, wasting my time
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
3:00 AM / 28 May
So, my band is joining Bandzout in NYP. Wonder how it'll go considering that we only got started quite recently. I wonder if Kelvin has sent in the form.
We're calling ourselves 'Of suicides and silver lines'. Kinda weird considering the places my head has been in the past few weeks.
Now we need to figure out what to play both for the auditions and the final (if we make it that far). I need to take a few things into consideration. One main thing is our ability as a band. So more technical songs are out of the question. This is further stressed by the fact that we have only around 4 weeks to prepare. So I'm gonna go for songs with more meaning. Those with a proper message that can relate to our views and experiences. Those that we can really sing full on with all our heart. (And why does it seem that at the exact moment I wrote that, my fringe started to go over my eye?)
So I'm looking through my library of songs to see what we could play. Here's what I got:
-Lycanthrope by (+44)
-911 For Peace by Anti-Flag
-Got The Numbers by Anti-Flag
-No Future by Anti-Flag
-Go by Blink-182
-I Feel So by Boxcar Racer
-Secret Weapon by MxPx
-Empty Walls by Serj Tankian
-Umbrella(Cover Version) by Vanilla Sky
-Give It All by Rise Against
-Like Trumpets by With Honor (This song is gonna be hard considering that I can't find the tabs)
That's my shortlist, but there are a few songs that I really wish we could perform for Bandzout but I know that it'll be too much to ask in such a short time or it would not be allowed on stage. But here's a list that I just thought I should give.
-Blindfolds Aside by Protest The Hero (With us actually performing it blindfolded)
-Blackhawks Over Los Angeles by Srung Out
-This Could Be Anywhere In The World by Alexisonfire
-Underground Network by Anti-Flag
-Brianstorm by Arctic Monkeys
-Shockwave by Black Tide
-Rise Up by blessthefall
-Take It Out On Me by Bullet For My Valentine
-Hail Destroyer by Cancer Bats
-Feathers by Coheed & Cambria
-Lorelei by Comeback Kid
-Holy Diver by Dio (Or the KsE version)
-Orchestra of Wolves by Gallows
-Vela, Together We Await The Storm by The Human Abstract
-A Farewell To Arms by Machine Head
-All Downhill From Here by New Found Glory
-Five Months by Parkway Drive
-Sleepers by Saosin
-Forever by Throwdown
-Pull Harder on The Strings of Your Martyr by Trivium
We're calling ourselves 'Of suicides and silver lines'. Kinda weird considering the places my head has been in the past few weeks.
Now we need to figure out what to play both for the auditions and the final (if we make it that far). I need to take a few things into consideration. One main thing is our ability as a band. So more technical songs are out of the question. This is further stressed by the fact that we have only around 4 weeks to prepare. So I'm gonna go for songs with more meaning. Those with a proper message that can relate to our views and experiences. Those that we can really sing full on with all our heart. (And why does it seem that at the exact moment I wrote that, my fringe started to go over my eye?)
So I'm looking through my library of songs to see what we could play. Here's what I got:
-Lycanthrope by (+44)
-911 For Peace by Anti-Flag
-Got The Numbers by Anti-Flag
-No Future by Anti-Flag
-Go by Blink-182
-I Feel So by Boxcar Racer
-Secret Weapon by MxPx
-Empty Walls by Serj Tankian
-Umbrella(Cover Version) by Vanilla Sky
-Give It All by Rise Against
-Like Trumpets by With Honor (This song is gonna be hard considering that I can't find the tabs)
That's my shortlist, but there are a few songs that I really wish we could perform for Bandzout but I know that it'll be too much to ask in such a short time or it would not be allowed on stage. But here's a list that I just thought I should give.
-Blindfolds Aside by Protest The Hero (With us actually performing it blindfolded)
-Blackhawks Over Los Angeles by Srung Out
-This Could Be Anywhere In The World by Alexisonfire
-Underground Network by Anti-Flag
-Brianstorm by Arctic Monkeys
-Shockwave by Black Tide
-Rise Up by blessthefall
-Take It Out On Me by Bullet For My Valentine
-Hail Destroyer by Cancer Bats
-Feathers by Coheed & Cambria
-Lorelei by Comeback Kid
-Holy Diver by Dio (Or the KsE version)
-Orchestra of Wolves by Gallows
-Vela, Together We Await The Storm by The Human Abstract
-A Farewell To Arms by Machine Head
-All Downhill From Here by New Found Glory
-Five Months by Parkway Drive
-Sleepers by Saosin
-Forever by Throwdown
-Pull Harder on The Strings of Your Martyr by Trivium
Monday, May 26, 2008
10:16 PM / 26 May
Hail Destroyer by Cancer Bats
Tear us down.
Welcome destruction with open arms.
It’s all too static. Bring it on, bring it on.
Routine’s so boring it makes me scream. Tear us down. Just tear us down.
When fate just pushes us along.
Children of nothing, this is our song.
Hail destroyer. Hail destroyer. Hail destroyer. We’re rising up from ashes.
Erase the comfort, erase the crutch
When given nothing we appreciate so much
A wake up call. You just want to scream. Tear us down. Just tear us down.
On our own terms of right and wrong.
Children of nothing, this is our song.
Hail destroyer. Hail destroyer. Hail destroyer. We’re rising up from ashes.
Hail destroyer. Hail destroyer. Hail destroyer. Our lives begin when we fall down.
Keep me incomplete.
Keep it corroded the rust, the dust.
Keep me incomplete
All sense of order can self destruct.
Keep me incomplete
Reduced to rubble and time to shine.
Keep me incomplete
Tear us down and carry on.
Children of nothing, this is our song.
Hail destroyer. Hail destroyer. Hail destroyer. We’re rising up from ashes.
Hail destroyer. Hail destroyer. Hail destroyer. Our lives begin when we fall down.
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
12:34 AM / 20 May
I've stared here for quite a while wondering what I should write. It's not a case of not knowing what to write. It's a case of not knowing how to my feelings into words. This weekend was pretty much the toughest one of my life. Not that I had to do anything much. It's just that reality hit me. It hit me hard. I didn't have the home I once had. I was never going back to my old home. I was never going to go back to the routines I used to have. The daydreams on the bus rides. The thoughts as I look out my window giving my tired eyes a rest. The sound of my stray cat asking me for food. The sound of people walking by. Going to school or to the market. The wind blowing through my house. The fact that I had a room. Or just a house that I called my own. My own. Not my grandfather's. Not my brother's my own.
My dad says it's a sacrifice we have to take. But how much of a sacrifice is it until it kills you? Until there's nothing more to give. Home is a sacred place. It's the only place where you are made to feel safe. I have nothing against my grandad's place. This place has history. But my memories are not here. They are in my old home.
I guess that really hit me. I woke up not to the sound of the cleaner raking the leaves outside of my window but to the awkward sound of silence. That loss of familiarity just pushed me over the edge. I almost lost it. I have to say, I almost lost myself this weekend. I almost threw myself to the wolves.
In Not Now.Not Never I say "I am a lot of things and a lot of things I am not". And one of those things I am not is emotionally strong. A lot of times, my emotions consume me. And I guess having to break all my routines for this really took it's toll.
There are a lot of people I want to meet. And among those people is my late grandmother on my mother's side. I never met her before. She died shortly before my birth. Which is why I want to meet her. The fact that I never knew her yet I'm tied so closely to her means a lot to me.
They say every dark cloud has it's silver lining. I always look for that every time a rain cloud passes by. And somehow, I have yet to see one. I guess that it doesn't come around too often. Yet somehow I hold on to that thought. I have to trust that there's a silver lining for me. Or else I wouldn't have thrown myself to the wolves.
That's why now, even though I will have Not Now.Not Never in the back of my head, I need something new to push me forward. Something that makes me relish the opportunity to live. I'm not insane. I'm just being me. That's why from now on, until the near future at least, I'll be thinking of silver lines and suicides.
My dad says it's a sacrifice we have to take. But how much of a sacrifice is it until it kills you? Until there's nothing more to give. Home is a sacred place. It's the only place where you are made to feel safe. I have nothing against my grandad's place. This place has history. But my memories are not here. They are in my old home.
I guess that really hit me. I woke up not to the sound of the cleaner raking the leaves outside of my window but to the awkward sound of silence. That loss of familiarity just pushed me over the edge. I almost lost it. I have to say, I almost lost myself this weekend. I almost threw myself to the wolves.
In Not Now.Not Never I say "I am a lot of things and a lot of things I am not". And one of those things I am not is emotionally strong. A lot of times, my emotions consume me. And I guess having to break all my routines for this really took it's toll.
There are a lot of people I want to meet. And among those people is my late grandmother on my mother's side. I never met her before. She died shortly before my birth. Which is why I want to meet her. The fact that I never knew her yet I'm tied so closely to her means a lot to me.
They say every dark cloud has it's silver lining. I always look for that every time a rain cloud passes by. And somehow, I have yet to see one. I guess that it doesn't come around too often. Yet somehow I hold on to that thought. I have to trust that there's a silver lining for me. Or else I wouldn't have thrown myself to the wolves.
That's why now, even though I will have Not Now.Not Never in the back of my head, I need something new to push me forward. Something that makes me relish the opportunity to live. I'm not insane. I'm just being me. That's why from now on, until the near future at least, I'll be thinking of silver lines and suicides.
Friday, May 16, 2008
12:16 AM / 16 May
ARGH.
That pretty much sums up everything that I can think of at the moment. I have barely kicked into school mode and I'm already getting hit left and right with deadlines and tests.
I just realized that I need to make 4 websites for this semester. 1 is an Enterprise project. Another is a J2EE based blog. And the other 2 are websites for Business projects.
And it's even harder considering the fact that I can't leave my laptop on 24/7 or else it'll get marauded by my brother's cats when I leave it alone. And I'll be using Microsoft's Visual Studio, IBM's Rational Software Architect and not to mention Macromedia's Dreamweaver for the sites. Which means more slowness for my computer.
ARGH.
Someone save me.
Or even better, someone help the people in Myanmar and China.
Some punk to get the blood running.
Got The Numbers by Anti-Flag
You push and push a people, what are they to do?
Soon this corporate run government will be through
See, it doesn't represent the people anymore
Big business are the pimps and governments' their whores
We don't need more time to talk over a solution
We know what we need, we need a fucking revolution
We don't need your war machine, or your filthy blood stained dollars
We’ve got one thing you ain’t got
We’ve got, we've got, we've got... got the numbers!
To you the masses are not even human beings
We’re dogs that will be grateful for any scraps you leave
But even dogs will only put up with so much abuse
Keep stealing from us like you are we're gonna let loose
We don't need more time to talk over a solution
We know what we need, we need a fucking revolution
We don't need your war machine, or your filthy blood stained dollars
We’ve got one thing you don't have
We’ve got, we've got, we've got... got the numbers!
We’ve got...we have... we've got the numbers!
We don't need more time to talk over a solution
We know what we need, we need a fucking revolution!!!
We don't need your war machine, or your filthy blood stained dollars
We’ve got one thing you ain’t got
We’ve got, we've got, we've got... got the numbers!
That pretty much sums up everything that I can think of at the moment. I have barely kicked into school mode and I'm already getting hit left and right with deadlines and tests.
I just realized that I need to make 4 websites for this semester. 1 is an Enterprise project. Another is a J2EE based blog. And the other 2 are websites for Business projects.
And it's even harder considering the fact that I can't leave my laptop on 24/7 or else it'll get marauded by my brother's cats when I leave it alone. And I'll be using Microsoft's Visual Studio, IBM's Rational Software Architect and not to mention Macromedia's Dreamweaver for the sites. Which means more slowness for my computer.
ARGH.
Someone save me.
Or even better, someone help the people in Myanmar and China.
Some punk to get the blood running.
Got The Numbers by Anti-Flag
You push and push a people, what are they to do?
Soon this corporate run government will be through
See, it doesn't represent the people anymore
Big business are the pimps and governments' their whores
We don't need more time to talk over a solution
We know what we need, we need a fucking revolution
We don't need your war machine, or your filthy blood stained dollars
We’ve got one thing you ain’t got
We’ve got, we've got, we've got... got the numbers!
To you the masses are not even human beings
We’re dogs that will be grateful for any scraps you leave
But even dogs will only put up with so much abuse
Keep stealing from us like you are we're gonna let loose
We don't need more time to talk over a solution
We know what we need, we need a fucking revolution
We don't need your war machine, or your filthy blood stained dollars
We’ve got one thing you don't have
We’ve got, we've got, we've got... got the numbers!
We’ve got...we have... we've got the numbers!
We don't need more time to talk over a solution
We know what we need, we need a fucking revolution!!!
We don't need your war machine, or your filthy blood stained dollars
We’ve got one thing you ain’t got
We’ve got, we've got, we've got... got the numbers!
Saturday, May 10, 2008
3:18 AM /10 May
Hmm. What to talk about. Nothing much in my head recently. Life's been pretty mundane since I moved to my brother's place. It's kinda fun having to sleep in the living room with 5 cats. And I also have the TV to myself at nights. That's fun.
I guess a semblance of normality is back. I'm back to my routines. Though I haven't quite gotten my sleep cycle back. I was pretty much late for class everyday this week. I have to start focusing. Argh. I can't lose the plot so late in the game. The last place I need to be after NS is nowhere.
Thank God the rain is back. The heat was just killing me. I mean there were times where I was sweating before I could even get out of the house.
I'm just putting random thoughts together at this point. I guess another thing that I haven't gotten back is my usual thought cycle. I haven't been daydreaming that much anymore. I used to daydream a lot. Not in the bad way. It's what I call random contemplation. It's how I get my weird thoughts and also how I write stuff. It's kinda like being high on weed.
Since I ain't got no thought to jot I might as well post a video.
Who says a metal song can't be a love song.
The End Of Heartache by Killswitch Engage
Seek me,
Call me,
I'll be waiting
Seek me,
Call me,
I'll be waiting
This distance,
This dissolution
I cling to memories while falling
Sleep brings release,
And the hope of a new day
Waking the misery of being without you
Surrender, I give in
Another moment is another eternity
(Seek me) For comfort,
(Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting here) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion,
(Call me) I'll be waiting
(I'll be waiting here) For the end of my broken heart
You know me, you know me all too well
My only desire - to bridge our division
In sorrow I speak your name
And my voice mirrors, mirrors my torment
(Seek me) For comfort,
(Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting here) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion,
(Call me) I'll be waiting
(I'll be waiting here) For the end of my broken heart
Am I breathing?
My strength fails me
Your picture, a bitter memory
For comfort,
For solace
(Seek me) For comfort,
(Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
I guess a semblance of normality is back. I'm back to my routines. Though I haven't quite gotten my sleep cycle back. I was pretty much late for class everyday this week. I have to start focusing. Argh. I can't lose the plot so late in the game. The last place I need to be after NS is nowhere.
Thank God the rain is back. The heat was just killing me. I mean there were times where I was sweating before I could even get out of the house.
I'm just putting random thoughts together at this point. I guess another thing that I haven't gotten back is my usual thought cycle. I haven't been daydreaming that much anymore. I used to daydream a lot. Not in the bad way. It's what I call random contemplation. It's how I get my weird thoughts and also how I write stuff. It's kinda like being high on weed.
Since I ain't got no thought to jot I might as well post a video.
Who says a metal song can't be a love song.
The End Of Heartache by Killswitch Engage
Seek me,
Call me,
I'll be waiting
Seek me,
Call me,
I'll be waiting
This distance,
This dissolution
I cling to memories while falling
Sleep brings release,
And the hope of a new day
Waking the misery of being without you
Surrender, I give in
Another moment is another eternity
(Seek me) For comfort,
(Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting here) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion,
(Call me) I'll be waiting
(I'll be waiting here) For the end of my broken heart
You know me, you know me all too well
My only desire - to bridge our division
In sorrow I speak your name
And my voice mirrors, mirrors my torment
(Seek me) For comfort,
(Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting here) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion,
(Call me) I'll be waiting
(I'll be waiting here) For the end of my broken heart
Am I breathing?
My strength fails me
Your picture, a bitter memory
For comfort,
For solace
(Seek me) For comfort,
(Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
Saturday, May 03, 2008
1:30 AM / 3 May
So here I am. At my brother's place. Crashing here for the next few days. Have to put the crashing-at-my-grandad's place on hold for now as my uncle and cousin from KL are there. Most probably be moving next week. Managed to get like 90% of the stuff out. I still have alot of my clothes and books to bring.
I'm really kinda sad at the way that I have to leave that place. Mainly due to the fact that it wasn't on my on terms. We got forced out. I guess that happens. Especially when you get ignorant to certain facts. I would really have loved to stay there for longer. It's a great place. Though there are definitely the cons. But it's still a good place. And I had great plans for that place too. Inheriting my brother's room, I managed to gain a steady collection of posters that I wanted to plaster the walls with. But I had to bring them down. Just as it seemed to take shape. Oh well. I just have to make sure nothing happens to them.
And I realized I have a lot of stuff. Let's see there was:
- 5 bags of clothes + 1 additional box of clothes
- 2-3(I lost count) boxes of books.
- My collection of tags and stickers that I plastered my table with
- My collection of cards
- My collection of posters
- My collection of magazines
- My collection of toys and stuffed animals from my childhood
- My brother's Coca-Cola collection. Or part of it.
- My current set of stuff for this semester.
- 2 computer tables
- 1 laptop and 1 desktop PC
- 7 pairs of shoes
- 6 bags (5 of which I filled up with my clothes)
- My CDs
- and my guitar
There you go. All the stuff in my room. Or just stuff that naturally had me associated to it. Now I need to figure out how to connect my laptop to my brother's router.
You know how they say that 'Home is where the heart is'? Well in my case I kinda have the feeling that it's more of 'My heart will always be where my home is'.
I'm really kinda sad at the way that I have to leave that place. Mainly due to the fact that it wasn't on my on terms. We got forced out. I guess that happens. Especially when you get ignorant to certain facts. I would really have loved to stay there for longer. It's a great place. Though there are definitely the cons. But it's still a good place. And I had great plans for that place too. Inheriting my brother's room, I managed to gain a steady collection of posters that I wanted to plaster the walls with. But I had to bring them down. Just as it seemed to take shape. Oh well. I just have to make sure nothing happens to them.
And I realized I have a lot of stuff. Let's see there was:
- 5 bags of clothes + 1 additional box of clothes
- 2-3(I lost count) boxes of books.
- My collection of tags and stickers that I plastered my table with
- My collection of cards
- My collection of posters
- My collection of magazines
- My collection of toys and stuffed animals from my childhood
- My brother's Coca-Cola collection. Or part of it.
- My current set of stuff for this semester.
- 2 computer tables
- 1 laptop and 1 desktop PC
- 7 pairs of shoes
- 6 bags (5 of which I filled up with my clothes)
- My CDs
- and my guitar
There you go. All the stuff in my room. Or just stuff that naturally had me associated to it. Now I need to figure out how to connect my laptop to my brother's router.
You know how they say that 'Home is where the heart is'? Well in my case I kinda have the feeling that it's more of 'My heart will always be where my home is'.
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