Woah...Long time since I posted here. Before anything I'd just like to wish anyone who's celebrating a Merry Christmas/Happy Hanukkah/Happy Kwanzaa.
So yeah, as you can see, I'm very busy. Doing my attachment now at this web design company. We do websites for hotels and stuff. Not a bad gig it seems so far. I've actually been offered to stay on a little longer before I head off for NS. I'll just keep it in view for now...
Met with the Four4 (or whatever was left of them) peeps the other day. It felt good to go out and have a bit of fun. Life was hitting routine quite fast since attachment started. Thank God for these long weekends we have. I also have the PBMA chalet on Friday. Can't wait for that.
Now that I've been doing projects and attachments and stuff, I find that I kinda miss studying. I think it's that lack of learning that is bumming me out. It seems my brain is dying out on me even though I still am busy with work. Even the pages of news I try to read everyday on MSNBC.com can't stop my brain drain...
That's why I have found my cure for boredom at work. KNAC.com and Grooveshark Lite. KNAC is this old rock radio station from the U.S. that now houses itself online. My brother told me about it and it's the greatest thing. I wanted to listen to radio so that I didn't have to bother with choosing songs but I couldn't bring myself to listen to all the crap that they play on mainstream radio these days. So ta-daa. KNAC.com to the rescue.
Grooveshark on the other hand is for when I do want to listen to a particular song. It houses millions of songs on its servers and all I have to do is search for it and stream it. I can even make playlists and stuff. So there's no hassle in having to run a media player.
I really can't wait until browser-based computing takes off...
Oh yeah, Sembawang Shopping Centre just re-opened. They've got great shops there. There's a Challenger store, Fish & Co., Hei Sushi and don't forget Giant. Though I can't understand why there are no fast food outlets and of all coffee places why did they choose to have a Starbucks?! Godammit...
I've been watching a lot of live vids recently, in particular the Roadrunner United Concert. Some great collaborations in that one. Like this song called the Dagger. The personnel playing this song include:
Howard Jones / Robert Flynn - vocals Andreas Kisser / Jeff Waters - lead guitar Jordan Whelan - rhythm guitar Adam Duce - rhythm guitar Paul Gray - bass Andols Herrick - drums
And Adam Duce, bassist for Machine Head on guitar, you just can't find anything else that can top that. It's just a great concert made up of great musicians.
So after some time, I thought I should do another music post. New vid from Protest the Hero. This one's for their song Palms Read. Again, it questions the concept of evolution vs creationism, which has pretty much been the theme of their album Fortress. I've actually been waiting for this one for quite long. Well, here it is.
Palms Read by Protest The Hero
As often as always evolution comes crawling from the sea Alive with urgency like suicide convinced the grass is greener on dry earth.
The march of serrated utterance like a soft cough Muffled murmur sneaking through the lecture hall. The crawl across the island, the sound of waves Embodied water sprouting legs as loud as gallop
All the young people who took a leap without faith into a riverbed That drowns about as much as it saves Cuffing down on ground against the cries of gravity
Belly-up, half buried in the sand. Extend a hand to the smallness of death Understand that only dying is this colossal Creation shedding skin to find a perfect equilibrium like fossils
All the young people who took a leap without faith into a riverbed That drowns about as much as it saves
All the young cowards acting out for the braves forever hurled Into the waters of their indifferent graves.
For a million years raise your glass in cheers We will never answer where we came from Only how we got here.
Well, Obama has won. You know what the funny thing was? Everyone expected him to win, but when he did win it was much bigger than expected. I mean, just remembering Dr. King and his words, Rosa Parks and her actions, it seems like dream come true for Black Americans everywhere. I'm no historian or even an activist for that matter. But there was always that feeling that it was gonna be a turning point in modern history.
And I was looking through the poll statistics and there were some points to note. This was the largest voter turnout in quite some time. I guess all the vote registration campaigns paid off. And that was important. If you have an opinion, it's important to voice it. Especially when it comes down to choosing your nation's leader. But the diversity of his voters was also quite surprising. From what I heard, there was everyone from old people, young people, college-educated white males, people from the reddest red states (i.e. Ohio).
But imagine the scrutiny. He's young, supposedly inexperienced AND the first Black President. The world's in a financial crisis, there are 2 wars going on that is sapping strength from their country, foreign ties are mixed at best. One wrong move and that could be his end. I'm no American, but I just hope the people there just give him a chance.
There is one thing I do know however, he has to take care of his own country before taking care of the world. He may be the leader of the free world, but the free world needs America. Enough blabbering, here's his victory speech. This is what a real rallying speech should sound like.
Wheee....Today was fun. Went Jalan Raya with all the PBMA peeps. And the great thing? No MRT or bus 'cause there were cars!!!
Hehe. No need to sweat in the hot sun while going to each other's houses. =)
Let's see, the drivers were Fadhil (Mitsubishi Lancer), Amirul (Honda Jazz), Hashir (Volkswagen Golf then switched with a Merc) and lastly Nuurun (Toyota Avio).
The great thing about cars is that we don't have to waste so much time travelling. And thanks to this little convenience, we managed to cover about 11 houses within 12 hours. And there was even time to get lost along the way. =)
Ouh. And I guess I shouldn't be saying this but, we did a bit of racing on the way too. Haha. All I can say is Fadhil is quite good beind the wheel (mainly 'cause I was in his car all the way. Hehe). Okay, I'll admit, Amirul's quite good behind the wheel too.
I think this is a very memorable Jalan Raya 'cause it's the first time we drove around. Hopefully I can join in next year and take my dad's Mazda3 for a spin. Then we'll see who's the top driver...
I thought I'd post up a music video. This one's a new one from All That Remains. It's for their song Two Weeks. I love how Phil Labonte does a lot more singing in this song. He actually has quite a good voice. There's still a screaming backing track there so you still get those intense vocals. This is also one of the best solos I've heard from Oli Herbert. Oh yeah, the theme behind the vid is quite cool too.
Two Weeks by All That Remains
And you neglected I called you out don't please I said we're stronger than this now You resurrected mistakes years past it seemed And they exist to still haunt you
And still you feel like the loneliness Is better replaced by this I don't believe it this way And I can see the fear in your eyes I've seen it materialize Growing stronger each day
I could see it as you turned to stone Still clearly I can hear you say Don't leave, don't give up on me Two weeks and you ran away I remember don't lie to me You couldn't see that it was not that way Swear I never gave up on you
I wanted nothing but for that trust again And brick by brick you would take it You feared of phantoms and none exist but you You still saw fit to destroy it
And still you feel like the loneliness Is better replaced by this I don't believe it this way And I can see the fear in your eyes I've seen it materialize Growing stronger each day
I could see it as you turned to stone Still clearly I can hear you say Don't leave don't give up on me Two weeks and you ran away I remember don't lie to me You couldn't see that it was not that way Swear I never gave up on you
And you neglected I called you out don't please I said we're stronger than this now You feared of phantoms and none exist but you You still saw fit to destroy it
And I can see the fear in your eyes I've seen it materialize Growing stronger each day
I could see it as you turned to stone Still clearly I can hear you say Don't leave don't give up on me Two weeks you ran away
I could see it as you turned to stone Still clearly I can hear you say Don't leave don't give up on me Two weeks and you ran away I remember don't lie to me You couldn't see that it was not that way Swear I never gave up on you
Here's a little vid put together by my supervisor at EMRS. I'm not in it much mainly 'cause I joined them after 3 weeks and there are few pics of me in the events I was involved in. Oh yeah, Team 5 pic also doesn't have my face...But the memories are there.
ELDC starts tomorrow. They say it'll be quite slack but I doubt it'll be as fun as EMRS.
Aww man...I'll never forget today's date. It marks the end of pretty much the best 6 weeks of my life at NYP. I don't think it can get any better than my time at EMRS. At the start of TEP I was actually bummed that I got split from my class to go to EMRS. But now I see it was all worth it. It was only 6 weeks but damn we bonded well together. We were pretty much family when we left the room for the last time today. No disrespect to my classmates from DBI, but it seems that I just clicked in with the guys there. It was such a breath of fresh air considering that I had only 4 days of rest after my last exam paper before going off for TEP. And it was also a bit of ironic considering that for Entrepreneurship last semester, I did an events management company.
But I guess what worked was that there was a right mix of people there. Kinda like back in Anderson Sec. So you never really got bored with the people there. And I looked forward to going there every goddamn day. I had OT to claim and I really saw no reason to take it. I did not mind waking at 7:00 in the morning everyday and jamming myself into a train to get to school. I even left my guitar there to pass the time. The only downside was that I was fasting during most of my time there. So it got kinda boring during lunch.
Still, I feel like going to the room on Monday instead of ELDC just for the fun of it. I doubt they really de-activated my card. I'll go there and freak out the new round of students. Haha.
Well, I guess this set of lyrics from an All That Remains song can really sum things up.
"It's been so long since I could say I've needed anything stronger We can't be wrong when we have ties that bind us If I rely and I know the strength In those who taught me of the Power of the ties that bind"
Wow. Google's share prices must be on the rise. First it was the release of Chrome. And now, albeit finally, the release of Google Android, Google's open source handset operating system. I've read about its pending release for quite some time already. I'm not exactly sure what the impact will be like since Google isn't exactly the lifestyle branding powerhouse that Apple is. I mean the first release of the iPhone was in the last 2 days of their second financial quarter and it still managed to generate 2 million+ in profits for them. I wonder if the first Google Android phone will get the same reception.
I guess this is something that tech geeks will buy into more than your traditional consumer. As much as it is a handset debut, it is actually more of a software/OS debut. The phone itself does not really matter. What matters is what goes into it. I predict that this first "render", if you would like to call it that, of the Google Android OS may not be that perfect. It may take some other handset manufacturer or even some independent developer to really unlock what this handset OS is able to do. iPhone killer it may not be, but it could set the standard as to how handsets are supposed to function in the future.
The concert scene in Singapore is getting better by the year. Avenged Sevenfold are performing in Singapore next month. So they stand by their promise to perform a full set here after doing SingFest last year. 24th October at Max Pavilion.
That didn't surprise. Though I was a bit taken aback by how short a period there was from the announcement to the actual concert itself.
What did surprise me is news that The Taste of Chaos Tour (International) was coming to Singapore. No specific details yet, but LAMC Productions have the ToC Tour banner on their website. Rumours state that it will happen some time in November. Bands expected to perform are As I Lay Dying, Story Of The Year, Atreyu and Japanese band MUCC. Tickets are expected to cost $75.
I'm more interested in the ToC tour mainly 'cause the bands in there are more towards the side that I've been listening to recently. Especially so for As I Lay Dying. And $95 is very cheap.
Woohoo. I finally got my hands on Death Magnetic. And on first listen, this is what I have to say: "Holy crap they are back". I think what Lars Ulrich said was true. This is the best album that they could have made. It's no Master of Puppets, but who wants to here all those songs again. This is a mish mash of what Bay Area thrash is about. The crazy tempo changes, Lars' offbeat timing and Kirk's trademark soloing style. It's clearly a breath of fresh air. Here's a breakdown of the songs:
That Was Just Yor Life - Trademark Metallica opener. Fade in followed by insanely fast riffs. Reminded me a lot of Dyers Eve from ...And Justice For All
The End Of The Line - The speed is toned down a bit but still as heavy. Intro sounds a bit like Harvester of Sorrow.
Broken, Beat & Scarred - Sounds a bit like The Shortest Straw. Pretty much the first 3 songs of Death Magnetic sound very much like stuff from ...And Justice For All. In a good way though.
The Day That Never Comes - Their first single. This song is 2 part it seems. Like the way One was made. Starts out slow then midway there is a massive tempo change. Starts out like Fade To Black and finishes off like One. The harmonies also make it seem just epic.
All Nightmare Long - I like the intro with the bass which then switches into the heavy riffing. Possibly the longest intro they've done. WWE are using this song for No Mercy.
Cyanide - The intro sounds familiar but I can't put my finger on it. The riffs on this one sound cool. And the arrangement is great. Slight tempo changes also make the song refreshing.
The Unforgiven III - I swear you can actually sing Unforgiven over the backing track of this one. One of the slower songs on the album. Also sounds a little like I Disappear.
The Judas Kiss - I like this song. It has that bluesy feel which is something that I always liked about Metallica, their blues influence. The chorus is one of the better ones on this album.
Suicide & Redemption - Instrumental song. I prefer the older instrumentals over this one as this one is just filled with riffs and not as technically profound as the older ones like Orion.
My Apocalypse - Sounds like Fuel. But only very remotely. It's something that my brain does after listening to a million and one riffs it is able to remember even the smallest riffs. This is a fast song with a couple of tempo changes. Good riffs in this one too.
My favourite songs so far are That Was Just Your Life, The Unforgiven III, Judas Kiss and The Day That Never Comes mainly 'cause they are the songs that hit me the most on first listen. I'm sure the other songs will grow on me as I listen to the album more.
I guess it's time for another cryptic entry judging by the date. I'm pretty tired but this is what I will say.
- A day is only a measurement of time. There is no such thing as a bad day. All we have are our downfalls and our uprisings. Mine started about 4 months ago. Both my downfall and my uprising.
- I've let my thoughts consume me before. And the feeling is both scary and exhilirating. You will never know yourself until you leave yourself to feed on itself. Your thoughts, emotions and psyche. I learned that I'm more morbid than I think I am.
- If tormented by demons, they say ending it all is just running away from it. 'They' have never ended anything. Taking yourself may be the only way to face those demons. Where they are tangible and true. Devil be thy name but thy whispers I shall toss in thy face for thou shalt not rid me of my soul or my humanity.
Wheeee....Life's so fun at the moment. I'm doing Events Management and Road Shows(EMRS) for TEP now. So basically my 'department' if you would like to call it that, is in charge of pretty much all the events in and around NYP and even a couple outside. At first I was bummed 'cause I was separated from the rest of my module group who were sent to the Business Services Unit. But now I'm feeling kinda happy that I'm there. Here's why.
Monday: Reach EMRS. I'm told there's no work to be done since an event just finished the week before and planning for the next one hadn't started. We only had a 30 min meeting that day. I regretted not bringing my laptop but still managed to facebook and play PSP the whole day.
Tuesday: Brought my laptop and a book to read. Had a meeting that day for about 40 min if I'm not wrong. Played Football Manager the whole day after that.
Wednesday: Meeting in the morning followed by DoTA on laptop after that. Played CnC Generals at Raiders with some of the guys during lunch. At around 2pm EMRS had to go to Suntec to visit a Food Fair. Team 3 had to do a survey for them on the environment of the food fair and a bit of mystery shopping. Did that for the rest of the day.
Thursday: Meeting with supervisor in the morning. One of the guys downloaded Generals and all of us installed it. Tried to play on LAN but ran into errors. So played campaign the whole day. There was a meeting in there around 2.30pm too.
Friday: My team, which is Team 5, have to go recce an Old Folk's Home for an upcoming event which is a Community Event. They have to go at around 1pm which means I can't go 'cause of Friday prayers. But, I've got work to do. Had to do a poster for the event. Spent about 60% of my day doing 3 posters. Sad thing is the first 2 got rejected 'cause the higher-ups want it in landscape form not portrait. Played table tennis in the 'office' towards the end of the day.
So as you can see, life is not too bad to me. Work is gonna pick up around the tail-end of next week as we get closer to the event. But for now, the easing in process is great. And the guys in my team are a great bunch of people too.
Hell yeah they're back. Can't wait for the 12th. Pre-orders at HMV are $29.95 and the boxset pre-orders are $189.95. Oh man. The things I would do to get my hands on the boxset.
Damn. I can't wait for ATR's new album. Not as badly as the new Metallica one, but I'm just curious as to how it'll sound like. I mean Oli Herbert is a crazy guitarist. He looks like Odin and plays guitar like no other. And Mike Martin use to study guitar under Oli Herbert so I guess that helps in creating a close playing style between them. And come on, there's nothing fiercer than Jeanne Sagan. And thank goodness they finally have a proper drummer now. They've been having to go through a lot of them on the previous album. And Jason Costa is unique since he grips his sticks more like a jazz drummer would. Maybe I should try that sometime. Anyway, their new album will be titled 'Overcome' and is due to be released on 16 September.
3 days left 'til the fasting month starts. Can't wait. Really. My body's already anticipating the arrival of Ramadhan. However it's also 3 days to the start of TEP. No rest for the wicked I guess. And hell yeah I'm wicked.
One thing that I've really been wanting to do for quite some time is to talk about the US Presidential Elections, in particular the naming of Sen. Barack Obama as the Democratic Presidential Candidate.
Towards the tail-end of my second year there was an ICA for International Business where we just had to analyse some current issue that would affect international trade. My group did an analysis on the US Presidential Race. Okay it was more of me forcing the topic on my group, but the other ideas were boring. I think.
Back to the topic at hand. At that point, the presidential race was still in its earlier stages. Both Democrats and Republicans still had quite a few nominees running gunning for the seat and there was no definite idea of who was going to represent each party since each party could only submit one candidate for the presidential elections.
Since we had to focus on international trade we looked at their stand on the subject matter at hand. Everybody may be gunning for a Democrat mainly because of the situation in Iraq and the domestic economical situation of the US. But plainly in terms of international trade, it was not necessarily the better choice. This is also if it's in the POV of a foreign country.
You see, Democrats are not generally in favor of Free Trade. What they support is the concept of Fair Trade. Free Trade in its simplistic term is barrier-free trade between countries. No tariffs or quotas. Fair Trade on the other hand means that a country should have the right to protect the interests of their local producers and traders. This includes controlling inflow of foreign-produced products which are usually cheaper than locally-produced goods.
Proof includes the fact that in President Bill Clinton's 8 years in office only one real FTA was signed, that being the North American FTA (NAFTA). President Bush on the other hand installed about 4 or 5 FTAs one of which is the Singapore-US FTA. Even more recently, 187 Democrats in the recently elected House of Representatives were against President Bush's proposed Central American FTA (CAFTA). So Democrats will not really want to sign an FTA especially if there are no tangible benefits for the US.
What exactly does this mean? Well, if you're a producer looking to export your products to the US, its gonna be hard to go in barrier-free. Especially if you are hoping for your country to get an FTA with the US under the new presidency. And since US is pretty much the largest consuming country in the world (which is pretty much the reason why they have such a massive trade deficit), which exporter would not want a piece of that pie?
But looking back at the overly massive figure that is the US Trade Deficit, this could be the right thing for the US. Control influx of imports from other nations and try to kickstart their own export industry. It will roll consumer dollars back into the hands of the US and possibly counteract the inflation that is dwindling the US dollar's value. This may strengthen their economy and cross my fingers will slowdown the recession. A recession is inevitable, but at least this may lessen the impact. Hopefully.
And I also have a sneaking suspicion that the high oil prices are also indirectly affected by a weak US dollar. My lecturer told me that the recent drop in oil prices is due mainly to recession fears so it might seem like a paradox, but in my humble opinion, a stronger US dollar could be more of a double-positive than a cancel-out.
But back to the candidate discussion. I'm not gonna talk about McCain 'cause he is a douchebag and possibly a step backward from Bush. No really. He was the worst possible Republican to get chosen. My group actually predicted Sen. Hillary Clinton to be nominated since she was leading the polls at that time. She also voted for the NAFTA to be enacted back when her husband was President. Though this is not necessarily a sign of bias since at that time it actually seemed advantageous to enact the FTA. And also, her experience was what made us back her for the nomination. But I guess she ran out of steam and Obama's beliefs and charisma started to shine. It's a bit risky mainly due to the fact that Obama does lack some experience. But still, a Democratic victory should be on the cards.
Well, that's my 2 cents worth. I was a bit disappointed that Sen. Clinton did not win the nomination but not overly disappointed since Obama is a good candidate too. Still, it would have been good to see a woman in charge of the US.
Best Math Answer hands down. Beats the lame find x pics hands down. The power of logic shall kill us all. Or at least kill those who are stupid enough. Lol
I'm not really into Devildriver that much. This is pretty much their only song I've really listened to or liked mainly due to the opening guitar lick after about a few bars of the intro.
I'm pretty much done with 90% of this semester. All I have left are 2 exams. One on the 20th and another on the 27th. So I don't really have to start stressing myself out now.
I mean seriously, the projects this past semester was enough to make anyone scream. Let me list out all that I had to do.
- Entrepreneurship: Had to come up with a viable business plan which was to be presented in front of industry people. Deliverables included a mock-up of our product, a website, posters, flyers, brochures, actual feasible financial plans and a sound marketing plan.
Events On The Move:EVOM
- Enterprise Application Integration Project: Had to build a full-on website with Google Map and AJAX functionality.
- J2EE: This I have to give mad props to my group. 'cause I didn't do much for this one. Had to build a blog for this assignment
- Global Supply Chain Management: Had to do a study into the Supply Chain methods of Exxon Mobil
- Internet Marketing: Had to do an individual report on the internet marketing strategies of Vans.com.
- Internet Marketing: Had to do another group report and presentation to improve Sheng Siong Supermarket's web presence. Had to build a mock-up of the planned web site
So it seems like just six projects. But Entrepreneurship and EAIPJ lasted the whole semester. So focus kinda gets thrown around a lot when you have to manage your time around these 2 projects. Oh yeah and not to mention that somewhere in all those projects 4 websites were made. Thank God I made it through all these in one piece.
Study break is here. Too bad I don't got no holidays this semester. After my last paper, it's off to do my Teaching Enterprise Project and my Industrial Placement Program. To be frank, life in NYP was never easy but damn it was hella worth the ride. Now with some time on my hands I can go back to studying Mixed Martial Arts. I tried doing a bit of it this past semester but skool kinda drowned it out. I have yet to finish watching Bas Rutten's career fights. There's about 3+ hours of footage in there. Good ones I might add.
I just got finished watching Never Back Down. Thought I could use it to get me back into the MMA mood. It's a good movie and I've been looking forward to watching it for a long time. Though the fights are nothing like those in real MMA. For instance, the protagonist's (whoever his name was) kicks were too wild. And some of the submissions pulled off were just crazy. I mean it's all good for the movie screens but I prefer the real thing.
Like for instance this fight right here.
Bas Rutten vs Jason Delucia (Pancrase)
Bas Rutten is my favourite fighter and there's nothing better than learning from the fighter himself. I've never met him, but at least his collection of career fights has him explaining what was going through his head during the fight.
This match is wicked mainly cause of how methodical it all seems. For those of you who don't know, Pancrase does not allow closed-fist punches to the head. So you can only used open palm slaps to the head but you can still punch the body.
This match was pretty much the first match where I learned something about MMA or any fight sport in general. The liver is the biggest organ in the torso and hitting the liver spot-on is way more painful than a knockout because when you get knocked-out you don't feel any pain during the duration when you are out. With a liver shot you feel it during and after you get hit.
Argh. I think I'm gonna go back to pestering my dad to get me a punching bag and some MMA gloves.
Long time no blog. Not on purpose though. Busy busy busy. Presentations this coming Friday, Saturday and next Tuesday. If deadlines could kill, I'd be dead. But hey, last study semester. September begins the final lap. TEP followed up by IPP and after that, graduation.
I've got nothing else to say. So I'll just post up some videos. And a new song on my Muzicon.
So, it's been a bout 2 months since I moved out and into my granddad's place. Life's been cool. I've mellowed out. Though I still do not know the regularity with which the buses come. Thus I still tend to be late for school. That and the fact that I still can't seem to wake up on time.
All in all, my granddad's place still rules. As I said, this place houses a lot of history. 4 generations have a connection to this house and it feels good to be here knowing that I'm a part of that. And it's good to spend all this time with my granddad. He's in his early 90's and it's not very good to be alone at such an age. So I kinda feel there's a bit of reason as to why we are staying here at all.
There's also another great reason why I love this house. Well 2 actually. My granddad used to do a lot of gardening in the past and among other things that this house has, it has a coconut tree and a rambutan tree. Cool huh?
I took this pic above a week ago. They are ripe now and hang exactly outside the living room window behind my couch.
I found this cool website called Muzicons.com off of WebWare.com. It creates this simple widget for playing MP3s on your website or blog or even to post on a forum. What I liked about it the most was it's simplicity in customisation, something getting ever so impossible these days. My only gripe with the Muzicon widget is that it does not have an option to activate auto-play on load.
I posted a song on the sidebar by Mayday Parade called Jamie All Over. I've been listening to this song almost non-stop. It's a nice song that I got from the 2008 Warped Tour Compilation that I bought recently. Very upbeat and great vocals. I also like the meaning behind it. It speaks about 2 things: falling in love, though in dreams, and not wanting to let go of it. Sort of a simpler and more way to look at our fantasies. I actually feel that there is some overlapping notions in the song that I have experienced before, if you catch my drift. So yeah, just click play if you wanna listen in on what plays in my head.
Jamie All Over by Mayday Parade
I had a dream last night we Drove out to see Las Vegas We lost ourselves in the bright lights I wish you could have seen us Begging for change to get home Or at least San Francisco We put a ten on the high card And spent a summer on the west coast
Down and to the left (Here's a map and a pen, this place, let's point it out) We can't live four years past (All I ask, all I ask)
And please don't tell me that I'm dreamin' When all I ever wanted was to dream another sunset with you Fire all over When it's over I'll take this Cali sunrise with me And wake up with the fondest memories
We made love by the ocean As the waves crashed around you The sunset's never were so bright And the skies they were so blue You opened up into my arms And we laughed as I held you I'll never go back to Georgia Not at least 'till I have to
Down and to the left (Here's a map and a pen, this place, let's point it out) We can't live four years past (All I ask, all I ask)
And please don't tell me that I'm dreamin' When all I ever wanted was to dream another sunset with you Fire all over When it's over I'll take this Cali sunrise with me And wake up with the fondest memories Memories
I had a dream last night we Drove out to see Las Vegas We lost ourselves in the bright lights
Please don't tell me that I'm dreamin' When all I ever wanted was to dream another sunset with you Fire all over when it's over I'll take this Cali sunrise with me And wake up with the fondest memories
We made love by the ocean As the waves crashed around you The sunset's never were so bright And the skies they were so blue You opened up into my arms And we laughed as I held you I'll never go back to Georgia Not at least 'till I have to
No more From Autumn to Ashes? Damn. They did not break up. Just an indefinite hiatus the band says. That sucks. I was really waiting for a new release from them. The only album from them I ever listened to was Holding a Wolf By The Ears. I never really listened to their old stuff mainly because their previous lead singer was a douchebag. And I prefer Francis Mark's lyricism. It's just very cryptic and serene all at the same time. That's why I love this band. You can't really bend your head around the origins of each song but it still packs meaning. It's just a different experience listening to these type of bands.
Deth Kult Social Club by From Autumn to Ashes
On the might of kings and captains On the eyes of midnight watchmen I know my hatred is perfect For the culprit who deserves it
Dead meat against your broken bones Thrown in a ditch to die alone But there is no dream worth pursuing When there is nobody embracing And there is no war worth fighting When there is no blood worth spilling
On the might of kings and captains On the eyes of midnight watchmen I know my hatred is perfect For the culprit who deserves it
Dead meat against your broken bones Thrown in a ditch to die alone But there is no dream worth pursuing When there is nobody embracing And there is no war worth fighting When there is no blood worth spilling
I know my hatred is pure for the new recruit (one, two, three, go!) Imposters on the fast track To public execution Beggars for mercy unite But your pleas are ineffective And if you ever come back Beautiful incarnation I'll lie down at your feet and Accept my punishment You better save yourself You better save yourself You better save yourself
But there is no dream worth pursuing When there is nobody embracing And there is no war worth fighting When there is no blood worth spilling There is no dream worth pursuing When there is nobody embracing And there is no war worth fighting When there is no blood worth spilling
I guess the only replacement I can think up of is Vanna.
A Dead Language For a Dying Lady
As her insides, screaming, let me out She speaks as if someone's in the room with her (Someone sits quietly on the ceiling tile) Still facing the corner with eyes gouged out These tears of blood fall for blood is All she's crying now
As he cuts into her chest, her heart beats on She's just not giving up yet Though blinded by the devil's touch She rises above him She floats towards the light, as the darkness recedes (let me out, let me live again) In this most desperate hour (she cries) A most desperate hour...
In this crowded room In this crowded room In this crowded room (with an empty view) In this crowded room In this crowded room
Save your goodbyes, we all know it's not the end Save your goodbyes, we all know it's not the end Save your goodbyes, we all know it's not the end Save your goodbyes, we all know it's not the end
I think that Flogging Molly are really a truly unique band. It's hard to classify them. And that's not a bad thing. The first thing that comes to mind is the sound of old Irish folk music. But somehow they have managed to mesh that into punk and rock very well. Celtic punk is what some describe them as. But I just call them very good music. It's oddly very relaxing despite the jovial tone that their music possesses. This right here is my favourite.
Laura by Flogging Molly
This next song is about a young lady called Laura Who unfortunately isn't with us anymore But she's still called Laura ...Here we go...
Feel the words from my lips To your harsh finger tips Then you know where I come from Cause I know, yes I know Everything there is to know Cause I lost everything I had See, I could have danced on the sun But my world came undone
Laura!!!!!!!!
There's no need for tears Cause there's no need to cry The love that you leave Will never be denied This pain in my head escaped from my heart No woman alive can touch who you were So bye bye, Laura Cause no one could take your place Bye bye, Laura Your beauty will never fade The seed that you've sewn Will reach for the sky This love that you leave Will never be denied And after this song, her spirit lives on Though your not around you'll never be gone
So bye bye, Laura Cause no one can take your place Bye bye, Laura Your beauty will never fade Well I... I could have danced on the sun But my world came undone Laura Yeah, I could have danced on the sun But my world came undone So Bye Bye Laura Bye Bye Laura
So bye bye, Laura Bye bye Laura This pain in my head escaped from my heart No woman alive could touch who you were So bye bye Laura Cause no one could take your place Bye bye Laura Your beauty will never fade So bye bye, Laura Cause no one can take your place Bye bye, Laura Your beauty will never fade FADE!
Did you come here to kill or did you come here to die? Or did you really think that spaceships would descend from the sky?
Bending light and beaming forth across space-time To see us scared in the reflection of their oil-black eyes To stalk us like a predator Like our movies imply
They're not the ones who've come to kill us Come to fill us full of lead They're not the ones who hate us And they are not the ones who mutilate our animals Or travel through the skies; they're not the ones who cause us harm
We are We are, we are, we are We are still-life and cold blooded (I will not be) We are still-life and cold blooded (I will not be)
Hellbent on Heaven
While our righteous men are stuffing corpses full of shit and pain
We are, we are, we are still life We are, we are, we are still life We are, we are, we are Still-life
They're not the ones who cause us harm We are, we are (Did you come here to kill or did you come here to die?) We are still-life in cold blood We are still-life in cold blood We feel We feel nothing
Stuffing corpses full of shit and pain They bloviate about a future beyond the moon To bring about another planet's doom To discover peaceful life And beat a war-drum to its tune Unless my prayers are answered And our end is coming soon
I am the one Camouflage and guns Risk my life To keep my people from harm
Authority Vested in me I sacrifice With my brothers in arms
Trough this doorway What's on the other side Never knowing Exactly what I'll find Locked and loaded Voices screaming Let's go! Come on do it! Here we go
Take a life That others may live Oh that's just the way it goes It's playng over and over in my head Where it'll end Nobody knows
Take a life That others may live Oh that's just the way it goes It's playng over and over in my head Where it'll end Nobody knows
Stay the course Reasonable force I believe I serve a greater good
Smoke and dust Enemies are crushed Nothing left Where a man once stood
Trough this doorway What's on the other side Never knowing Exactly what I'll find Locked and loaded Voices screaming Let's go But I'm just doing what I'm told
Take a life That others may live Oh that's just the way it goes Shut my eyes It hammers in my head Where it'll end Nobody knows
Take this life That ten other may live Oh that's just the way it goes It's playing over and over in my head Where it begins And where it'll end Nobody knows
Bang bang it hammers in my head Bang bang it hammers in my head Bang bang it hammers in my head In my head In my head
Yeah though I walk to the through the valley of the shadow of death , I will fear no evil: for Thou art with me
Locked and loaded Gonna find my truth Now I'm busting trough All hell breaks loose
And you can all hide behind your desks now And you can cry 'teacher come help me!' Through you all My aim is true
Man. Had a chilled out day today. Went to get my hair cut then went slacking with Kelvin. First we sent his guitar to the workshop to get it fixed together 'cause he blew out 3 soldering irons trying to re-model his guitar. Then went to CBTL Forum to slack. Ate the Chicken Lasagna which is this month's promo food. Then we sat down to discuss songs for our band to play. This is what we ended up with:
While picking out songs we decided to doodle. And the thing in the bottom left hand corner are plans for joining up Lisda's future Coffee House, my future restaurant and Kelvin's future pub and also trying to incorporate my future jamming studio in there.
Hmmm... I wonder if Boxcar Racer was ever a pre-cursor to the existence of Angels & Airwaves. Anyway, I like this song a lot.
I Feel So by Boxcar Racer
Sometimes I wish I was brave I wish I was stronger I wish I could feel no pain I wish I was young I wish I was shy I wish I was honest I wish I was you not I
'Cause I feel so mad I feel so angry I feel so callous So lost, confused, again I feel so cheap So used, unfaithful Let's start over Let's start over
Sometimes I wish I was smart I wish I made cures for How people are I wish I had power I wish I could lead I wish I could change the world For you and me
'Cause I feel so mad I feel so angry I feel so callous So lost, confused, again I feel so cheap So used, unfaithful Let's start over Let's start over
'Cause I feel so mad I feel so angry I feel so callous So lost, confused, again I feel so cheap So used, unfaithful Let's start over Let's start over
I feel so mad I feel so angry I feel so callous So lost, confused, again I feel so cheap So used, unfaithful Let's start over Let's start over
Woah. I'm dead tired. Just came back from spending the day with Fadhil, Aqilah, Lisda and Nadhirah. First we went to East Coast Park in the morning to go cycling. That was actually quite fun. No long distances. 'Cause my previous bike ride was not really that enjoyable. But the short 2 hrs were actually quite fun. Breeze was blowing, sun was shining and the smell of the ocean just made things better. We didn't really go that far. We just went to one end and after that to the hawker centre place near the other end that's near the cable-boarding place. We sat there for a while before heading back to return the bikes.
We had quite a meaningful time together today. Wondering about the future and where our lives would end up. It's quite surreal at times. Like it was just yesterday we met. Like just the other day we went through the 'O's together. Never really thinking about the future. But as we edge closer, it kinda starts to dawn on us the gravity of our lives.
After that, we headed to Changi Airport for lunch. We decided to go to Swensen's. They had student lunch! Haha. Then Nadhirah said she wanted an Earthquake (as in the ice cream). Initially she wanted to pay for the Earthquake, but we flipped the script on her. We got it for her instead 'cause her birthday was not too long back. Haha.
I seriously wish I had some of the photos here so I could post them up. But it's all with Nadh and Fadh. So I have to wait.
I was thinking about the conversations we had today and about the different paths we take. Our aspirations all so unique. But yet all is so uncertain. It's scary as hell to think of failing 'cause once we are out there it's pretty much do or die. But it's good that I can still count on some people to help pull me through. That's why I have this song in mind. It's a cool slow song but there is substance to what it presents in its lyrics.
Duality by Bayside
Some days I get crazed I don't know why it's all relevant I'll take deep breaths And keep control, go on.
I've tried brave And you've tried to save I'm proud to keep it bottled up I think I past my prime and lost my mind and I'm torn.
No telling what tomorrow holds. Who let, who let this feeling die, when all I did was try? Who let, you let this feeling die, I can't get you out of my head, my head. You're the flame that burns me so I know that I'm still alive.
Some say It's all fate but I say we control our lives And if my destiny should outbest me then that's fine. I make believe thrill and apathy co-exist in me fairly equally The truth is doubts are all I've got to call mine.
No telling what tomorrow holds. No telling what voice takes control. Who let, who let this feeling die, when all I did was try? Who let, you let this feeling die, I can't get you out of my head, my head. And you're the flame that burns me so I know that I'm still alive.
Is there anybody out there (out there) Is anybody calling (anybody calling) Woaahh, if what i say is really wrong Is there anybody out there (out there) Is anybody calling (anybody calling) Woooah, if what you say is really wrong. I'm not in control, I think I'm out of control
Who let, who let this feeling die, when all I did was try? Who let, you let this feeling die, I can't get you out of my head, my head. And you're the flame that burns me so I know that I'm still alive.
Keep your eye focused this time, keep us in front of your sights, I've waited long for this, now it's our time for bliss, I just hope we have the time. I stand broken, please god hear my cries, he does everytime.
How many times have you watched me fall just to smile, I've been through thick and thin we've struggled through now we smile, so we're here now just be ready, brace yourself cause were not leaving.
Keep your eye focused this time, keep us in front of your sights, I've waited long for this, our time to shine, I just hope we have the time. I stand broken, please god hear my cries, he does everytime.
Help us get out, help us get out, out into the open, Help us grow, Rise up rise up. [x4]
I stand broken, please god hear my cries, he does everytime. [x2]
Keep your eye focused this time, keep us in front of your sights, I've waited long for this, now it's our time for bliss, I just hope we have the time. I stand broken, please god hear my cries, he does everytime
Just Because You Sleep Next To Me (Doesn't Mean You're Safe) by Gallows
Pour some petrol Through your letter box Put all my memories In an envelope Then set it on fire Then send it straight to you When you get it The least you could do Is choke on the smoke And let me breathe again I know I never want to fucking see you again
I watched you burning With the keys in my hand You were screaming 'fucking let me go' As you were turning black The crowd go wild And they signal applause Well done for getting this far Don't expect an encore when you Choke on the smoke Let me breathe again Because I know I never want to fucking see you again
Goodnight sweetheart Can you hear what I say? I broke both your legs You broke my heart today You're lying in this bed With your eyes tight shut I'm lying next to you Thank god I just woke up
Damn. Cancer Bats are really getting me back into listening to hardcore punk. Their energy is just crazy. It's just freaking infectious. I actually caught myself head-banging in public. Like one of those kind of "shiok-sendiri" moments. I bet I looked like a dickhead. Especially since it was in the MRT.
Cancer Bats are probably my favorite current hardcore band next to Gallows. I mean nothing can beat Gallows. They are just pure aggression in your face. Just balls out crazy. I mean just check out this song and the lyrics. Just intense man.
Orchestra of Wolves by Gallows
My name is Casanova I'm basically a man I have the head of a wolf The appetite of an entire land This song is going out to the girls You're all looking fucking fine Baby spread those shaking legs Because I'm feeling fucking hungry tonight I like to feed on broken hearts There ain't no taste like lovers falling apart
If i offer to buy you a drink Trust me when i say it's non-alcoholic You're no good to me if you can't even speak I don't want you passing out i want you sucking my dick If i offer to buy you a drink Trust me when i say it's non-alcoholic I want you to wake up and remember my name When you're washing my cum off your fucking face
My name is casanova I'm basically a man I have the head of a wolf The appetite of an entire land This song is going out to the girls You're all looking well buff I'm sick of all this long term shit I just wanna fuck
My name is casanova I'm nothing but a beast Baby the way you're shaking those hips Has got me ready for a fucking feast This song is going out to the girls I want to feel your body close against mine Why waste time with conversation When we can fuck for the rest of our lives
The hardest thing you'll ever learn Is just to love and be loved in return
So back to Cancer Bats. I realize quite a large number of the bands I listen to are Canadian bands. And this is a good thing. I mean there's Alexisonfire, Comeback Kid and now Cancer Bats. Cancer Bats actually toured a lot with Alexisonfire previously.
Cancer Bats, from what I've heard, are just in your face grinding, pounding hardcore. And they have awesome riffs. Just like how Gallows incorporate a lot of classic rock into their music, Cancer Bats have quite a distinct guitar styling. Sounds a lot like Pantera might I say. And I think that Kerrang! might have gotten it a bit off 'cause I read in one of their reviews and they called it metalcore. I guess the Pantera-ish riffing may give it that metal tinge, but this is straight-up hardcore punk. Their newest vid was Hail Destroyer which I already posted. So I'll post up a couple of vids from their first album.
French Immersion by Cancer Bats
Let’s do this, yeah, this reckless life, 1234 Chances all, written off, write our own, prevail This blood we drink, in our hearts This blood we drink, forever Take back the bonds that break us Take back the oaths we swear Take back to make things right Young hearts be free tonight And what we’ve got This is our ammunition And what we’ve got This is our ammunition Let’s do this, yeah, this reckless life, making amends Chance is ours, start a new, don’t look back, prevail This blood we drink, in our lungs This blood we drink, forever Take back the bonds that break us Take back the oaths we swear Take back to make things right Young hearts be free tonight And what we’ve got This is our ammunition And what we’ve got This is our ammunition Let’s do this, yeah, this reckless way, yeah
Pneumonia Hawk by Cancer Bats(feat. George Pettit from Alexisonfire)
Good goddamn , I've got things to say And this will break your heart If you're running shit I'm running scared, running scared I'm feeling low, in this city I'm feeling low, in this town It comes down to this, this one This place is hell on earth This place is the worst Good goddamn have I got things to say And this will break you're heart If you're running shit I'm running scared, running scared I'm feeling low, in this city I'm feeling low, in this town Waste time for this, this one Waste time for this, this one Alright, we won't get no younger Alright, we won't waste no time Oh this place is heaven I think Oh this place is Alright, we won't get no younger Alright, we won't waste no time Oh this place is heaven I think Oh this place is All this, this one thing, wasting my time All this, this one thing, wasting my time
So, my band is joining Bandzout in NYP. Wonder how it'll go considering that we only got started quite recently. I wonder if Kelvin has sent in the form.
We're calling ourselves 'Of suicides and silver lines'. Kinda weird considering the places my head has been in the past few weeks.
Now we need to figure out what to play both for the auditions and the final (if we make it that far). I need to take a few things into consideration. One main thing is our ability as a band. So more technical songs are out of the question. This is further stressed by the fact that we have only around 4 weeks to prepare. So I'm gonna go for songs with more meaning. Those with a proper message that can relate to our views and experiences. Those that we can really sing full on with all our heart. (And why does it seem that at the exact moment I wrote that, my fringe started to go over my eye?)
So I'm looking through my library of songs to see what we could play. Here's what I got:
-Lycanthrope by (+44) -911 For Peace by Anti-Flag -Got The Numbers by Anti-Flag -No Future by Anti-Flag -Go by Blink-182 -I Feel So by Boxcar Racer -Secret Weapon by MxPx -Empty Walls by Serj Tankian -Umbrella(Cover Version) by Vanilla Sky -Give It All by Rise Against -Like Trumpets by With Honor (This song is gonna be hard considering that I can't find the tabs)
That's my shortlist, but there are a few songs that I really wish we could perform for Bandzout but I know that it'll be too much to ask in such a short time or it would not be allowed on stage. But here's a list that I just thought I should give.
-Blindfolds Aside by Protest The Hero (With us actually performing it blindfolded) -Blackhawks Over Los Angeles by Srung Out -This Could Be Anywhere In The World by Alexisonfire -Underground Network by Anti-Flag -Brianstorm by Arctic Monkeys -Shockwave by Black Tide -Rise Up by blessthefall -Take It Out On Me by Bullet For My Valentine -Hail Destroyer by Cancer Bats -Feathers by Coheed & Cambria -Lorelei by Comeback Kid -Holy Diver by Dio (Or the KsE version) -Orchestra of Wolves by Gallows -Vela, Together We Await The Storm by The Human Abstract -A Farewell To Arms by Machine Head -All Downhill From Here by New Found Glory -Five Months by Parkway Drive -Sleepers by Saosin -Forever by Throwdown -Pull Harder on The Strings of Your Martyr by Trivium
Tear us down. Welcome destruction with open arms. It’s all too static. Bring it on, bring it on. Routine’s so boring it makes me scream. Tear us down. Just tear us down. When fate just pushes us along. Children of nothing, this is our song. Hail destroyer. Hail destroyer. Hail destroyer. We’re rising up from ashes. Erase the comfort, erase the crutch When given nothing we appreciate so much A wake up call. You just want to scream. Tear us down. Just tear us down. On our own terms of right and wrong. Children of nothing, this is our song. Hail destroyer. Hail destroyer. Hail destroyer. We’re rising up from ashes. Hail destroyer. Hail destroyer. Hail destroyer. Our lives begin when we fall down. Keep me incomplete. Keep it corroded the rust, the dust. Keep me incomplete All sense of order can self destruct. Keep me incomplete Reduced to rubble and time to shine. Keep me incomplete Tear us down and carry on. Children of nothing, this is our song. Hail destroyer. Hail destroyer. Hail destroyer. We’re rising up from ashes. Hail destroyer. Hail destroyer. Hail destroyer. Our lives begin when we fall down.
I've stared here for quite a while wondering what I should write. It's not a case of not knowing what to write. It's a case of not knowing how to my feelings into words. This weekend was pretty much the toughest one of my life. Not that I had to do anything much. It's just that reality hit me. It hit me hard. I didn't have the home I once had. I was never going back to my old home. I was never going to go back to the routines I used to have. The daydreams on the bus rides. The thoughts as I look out my window giving my tired eyes a rest. The sound of my stray cat asking me for food. The sound of people walking by. Going to school or to the market. The wind blowing through my house. The fact that I had a room. Or just a house that I called my own. My own. Not my grandfather's. Not my brother's my own.
My dad says it's a sacrifice we have to take. But how much of a sacrifice is it until it kills you? Until there's nothing more to give. Home is a sacred place. It's the only place where you are made to feel safe. I have nothing against my grandad's place. This place has history. But my memories are not here. They are in my old home.
I guess that really hit me. I woke up not to the sound of the cleaner raking the leaves outside of my window but to the awkward sound of silence. That loss of familiarity just pushed me over the edge. I almost lost it. I have to say, I almost lost myself this weekend. I almost threw myself to the wolves.
In Not Now.Not Never I say "I am a lot of things and a lot of things I am not". And one of those things I am not is emotionally strong. A lot of times, my emotions consume me. And I guess having to break all my routines for this really took it's toll.
There are a lot of people I want to meet. And among those people is my late grandmother on my mother's side. I never met her before. She died shortly before my birth. Which is why I want to meet her. The fact that I never knew her yet I'm tied so closely to her means a lot to me.
They say every dark cloud has it's silver lining. I always look for that every time a rain cloud passes by. And somehow, I have yet to see one. I guess that it doesn't come around too often. Yet somehow I hold on to that thought. I have to trust that there's a silver lining for me. Or else I wouldn't have thrown myself to the wolves.
That's why now, even though I will have Not Now.Not Never in the back of my head, I need something new to push me forward. Something that makes me relish the opportunity to live. I'm not insane. I'm just being me. That's why from now on, until the near future at least, I'll be thinking of silver lines and suicides.
That pretty much sums up everything that I can think of at the moment. I have barely kicked into school mode and I'm already getting hit left and right with deadlines and tests.
I just realized that I need to make 4 websites for this semester. 1 is an Enterprise project. Another is a J2EE based blog. And the other 2 are websites for Business projects.
And it's even harder considering the fact that I can't leave my laptop on 24/7 or else it'll get marauded by my brother's cats when I leave it alone. And I'll be using Microsoft's Visual Studio, IBM's Rational Software Architect and not to mention Macromedia's Dreamweaver for the sites. Which means more slowness for my computer.
ARGH.
Someone save me.
Or even better, someone help the people in Myanmar and China.
Some punk to get the blood running.
Got The Numbers by Anti-Flag
You push and push a people, what are they to do? Soon this corporate run government will be through See, it doesn't represent the people anymore Big business are the pimps and governments' their whores We don't need more time to talk over a solution We know what we need, we need a fucking revolution
We don't need your war machine, or your filthy blood stained dollars We’ve got one thing you ain’t got We’ve got, we've got, we've got... got the numbers!
To you the masses are not even human beings We’re dogs that will be grateful for any scraps you leave But even dogs will only put up with so much abuse Keep stealing from us like you are we're gonna let loose We don't need more time to talk over a solution We know what we need, we need a fucking revolution
We don't need your war machine, or your filthy blood stained dollars We’ve got one thing you don't have We’ve got, we've got, we've got... got the numbers! We’ve got...we have... we've got the numbers!
We don't need more time to talk over a solution We know what we need, we need a fucking revolution!!!
We don't need your war machine, or your filthy blood stained dollars We’ve got one thing you ain’t got We’ve got, we've got, we've got... got the numbers!
Hmm. What to talk about. Nothing much in my head recently. Life's been pretty mundane since I moved to my brother's place. It's kinda fun having to sleep in the living room with 5 cats. And I also have the TV to myself at nights. That's fun.
I guess a semblance of normality is back. I'm back to my routines. Though I haven't quite gotten my sleep cycle back. I was pretty much late for class everyday this week. I have to start focusing. Argh. I can't lose the plot so late in the game. The last place I need to be after NS is nowhere.
Thank God the rain is back. The heat was just killing me. I mean there were times where I was sweating before I could even get out of the house.
I'm just putting random thoughts together at this point. I guess another thing that I haven't gotten back is my usual thought cycle. I haven't been daydreaming that much anymore. I used to daydream a lot. Not in the bad way. It's what I call random contemplation. It's how I get my weird thoughts and also how I write stuff. It's kinda like being high on weed.
Since I ain't got no thought to jot I might as well post a video.
Who says a metal song can't be a love song.
The End Of Heartache by Killswitch Engage
Seek me, Call me, I'll be waiting
Seek me, Call me, I'll be waiting
This distance, This dissolution I cling to memories while falling Sleep brings release, And the hope of a new day Waking the misery of being without you
Surrender, I give in Another moment is another eternity
(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace (I'll be waiting here) For the end of my broken heart (Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting (I'll be waiting here) For the end of my broken heart
You know me, you know me all too well My only desire - to bridge our division
In sorrow I speak your name And my voice mirrors, mirrors my torment
(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace (I'll be waiting here) For the end of my broken heart (Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting (I'll be waiting here) For the end of my broken heart
Am I breathing? My strength fails me Your picture, a bitter memory
For comfort, For solace
(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace (I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
So here I am. At my brother's place. Crashing here for the next few days. Have to put the crashing-at-my-grandad's place on hold for now as my uncle and cousin from KL are there. Most probably be moving next week. Managed to get like 90% of the stuff out. I still have alot of my clothes and books to bring.
I'm really kinda sad at the way that I have to leave that place. Mainly due to the fact that it wasn't on my on terms. We got forced out. I guess that happens. Especially when you get ignorant to certain facts. I would really have loved to stay there for longer. It's a great place. Though there are definitely the cons. But it's still a good place. And I had great plans for that place too. Inheriting my brother's room, I managed to gain a steady collection of posters that I wanted to plaster the walls with. But I had to bring them down. Just as it seemed to take shape. Oh well. I just have to make sure nothing happens to them.
And I realized I have a lot of stuff. Let's see there was:
- 5 bags of clothes + 1 additional box of clothes - 2-3(I lost count) boxes of books. - My collection of tags and stickers that I plastered my table with - My collection of cards - My collection of posters - My collection of magazines - My collection of toys and stuffed animals from my childhood - My brother's Coca-Cola collection. Or part of it. - My current set of stuff for this semester. - 2 computer tables - 1 laptop and 1 desktop PC - 7 pairs of shoes - 6 bags (5 of which I filled up with my clothes) - My CDs - and my guitar
There you go. All the stuff in my room. Or just stuff that naturally had me associated to it. Now I need to figure out how to connect my laptop to my brother's router.
You know how they say that 'Home is where the heart is'? Well in my case I kinda have the feeling that it's more of 'My heart will always be where my home is'.
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